I Think i stop BLOGGING

U R ENTITLED TO YOUR OWN OPINION AND IM ENTITLED TO MIND...

DATS the title for my blog and i think its time i stop writting....Y? i just hated the tagboard and the comments some of them wrote...its just felt like i cant express my thoughts and feelings here without being condemed and run down...not one blog i write have all the good comments and motivation,there r sure to be a bad apple in a basket of good apples

Someone nice put up this blog for me to express my thoughts and feelings as i been keeping all my sorrow and hatred in me, its really eating me..and my fren put up this blog with all the things i need for me to express myself as she thinks its not good for me to just keep and hide all my sorrow in me..Thnks FIZ!!!!

I think its time im back to square one and hide all my sorrow again, the blogs really helps me alot in writting down all the incident,sorrow,happinese and things that happen to me and my life but even that oso ppl wanna run me down...i dunnoo y?

I apologised, i told them im sorry and even at times regrets wat i did in my past and some ppl still cant forgive me,maybe to them black will always be black and can never be turn to white.....yes i agreed its hard and difficult,but im trying my best and trying hard......

I work 12 to 14 hrs a day day and night and i love to write and blog bout things and even that u ppl have to take it away from me..its cruel though but i undersand we r living in a cruel world and society,im just an odinary guy who wrks my ass off for a lving and making the best of wat i have...and even that i cant be given the freedom or write and speeech....

Im just so tired of this cyberworld things and i think the best plc to be is in the reality world and my own world.....SOrry i removed the TAGBOAARD and to those who leave me a positives comments, i thank u from the bottom of my heart and to those who leave me a negatives comments, thnks to u that i wont write how i felt anymore...im not angry ,just dissapointed cos wen i suddenly felt that by writting i have a freedom or speech and thinking....u ppl throw me back in my own prison wall even without checking if im guilty or not...

Cyberworld is truly a cruel world where ppl just hide behind their pc and talk bout ppl,i dun wan this anymore and for my job.... if i was given the choice, i would choose the ovrseas and left all this behind and if its happen.....its my third time in solitary.....FIRST...while i was in prison.....SECOND is wen i got a divorced ....and THIRD......is because of how ppl think and their perception on me............I may look strong n fierce but im actually weak, im weak with all the negatives thought ppl have on me and for the record...im just truly dissapointed with all the TAGG.......remember the title of the blog.....U HAVE YOUR OWN OPINION AND I HAVE MINE ...but your opinion is just jumping into conclusion

Cant fight the feeling......

CANT FIGHT THE FEELINGS....I TOT IM STRong


Normal friday night with big reservation and crowd. its a slam jam day for me... out of the many customer a couple caught my eyes, its a gal i used to date with and meet...... and no matter how strong and stuck up i look, i felt funny, funny that i still feel sad and the jealousy is still there,, no i dint blame her for the break up nor hated her, i just felt its oso not my fault tooo....WHO IS TO BE BLAME?

I nvr sked her if thats the guy she been meeting with or seeing,cos i remember she left me cos i cant commit, i cant gave her wat she wants which is marriage.... i cant spend time and cant even have a decent date.... i know its wrong..BUT....during all the times that i cant date, i cant meet and i cant speend time with her...WHERE THE F%*k AM I? ....im working my ass off in the kitchen and no weekend off and public holiday off for me.....

So is it my work to be blame or is it my passion for cooking?

I will nvr tell her or sms her this, but i just wish i nvr see the sight of them being together, i just wish i nvr hve to be there and see them eating,flirting and having an enjoyable time together, its not that im angry....its just that yes i admit, im jealous.....

But i just wish her all the best and hopefully she found wat she is looking for cos,for me....thru out all these years....i am still searching..searching for wat i oso dunno, but im still waiting for the time wen i have my alightentment......

happy days

AFTER THE STORM AND RAIN....THERE WILL BE SUNSHINE N MAYBE RAINBOW



Its been few weeks or restless sleep and lots of worries.....finally,i realise that nobody suffer forever,wheels go round and round and wen u r at the bottom,u will eventually go up again ....

I have lots of job oppurtinity that i was shocked myself,all offers suddenly poured in an even my boss have already sign on few new plces( which means we r growing).My regular diners suddenly offered me a place for a chef and willing to take my team, he wanted to open up his own restaurant and willing to hear wat is my terms, my fren in malaysia offer me a job in one of the big hotels,the food supplier which i ordered food from is asking me to join them as his boss is opening a gourmet shop and cafe,2 jobs in perth and even a cooking sch email me to join as a trainer....HOWS THAT FOR A START?....Its good news for me

But my main priority is to hear wat my BOSS AND MENTOR ,CHEF ROBERTO had to offer as there is so much more i can learn from him and the trust he given me all this while is something i thnks him personally.....

ps....for someone name ria who leaves the comment on my comment box,Im sorry if i have hurt u in anyway, but dun go laughing and smilling on somebody else downfall cos in life,,, y the hatred? it wont earn u anything or it wont make u rich? just moved on with life ......and u might not know when is your turn>>>>>>>>

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contd......................I tot i was strong but to tell u the truth, i been having sleepless nights ,today the chef and manager from the german outlet came down and have a talk bout the renovation,kitchen stuff and equipments for hand over and its struck me that...the time is nearer and nearer and the worse things is i cant do anything bout it....my hands and legs are tied and i really feel like shit...

Even though i know i dun owned Menotti but i can proudly say that, its my life over there,every single incident and details, i was directly or indirectly involved
i spend more time over there than in my own bloody home, if i was a gal,, i would cry openly there..but i still have to remain focus,cool and professional bout the whole things...only god knows how i felt at this moment

Losing menotti was like a failed marriage, and i been there b4, the feeling is the same and i really cant do anything but play the waiting game.... and now the renovation will start earlier....i have sleepless night, dun talk that much,losing appetite and it really hurts alot..i just wish that i could turn back the clock and wrk harder to generate more sales for menotti, but i always tot i did my best, and perhaps my best was not good enough....

I guess this is life, things can just change for an instant and u have to be clever to deal with it,im just waiting for the instruction,and decision from the company and take it from there and start all over again,only this time....its not MENOTTI

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cont................ after 4 yrs of wking in menotti,suddenly we r going to change the concept and food,from italian to german,from plce for eating to plc of drinking,its a pity and sad moment in my career thinking bout it....

My boss promised nobody is getting fired or the changes wont be massive one but to me it simply means...Thers no more MENOTTI,no more raffles city for me. I really dun wanna be seperated with my team and even my team told me something which touches my heart...they say" CHEF, if we r to be seperated with each other, we all going to tendered our letter,deep in me, i was crying, crying with tears of dissapointment that the ppl who i shouted,scolded, and reprimand during their work stint here actually wanted to staay on with me in their career...DUN GET ME WRONG,i scoded-for thier own benefit and learning process....i shouted-during operation times to get things going and smooth sailing and i reprimanded-to let them feel that nobody is indispensable for me at anywher...

I really wanted to stay with them but as a chef and an employee for my BOSS,i have to respect his decision and his visionfor the group best interest...he promised he will have a plc for me and my team to startn wrk together again after Menotti and he promised that he will find a plc for me,but....its not MENOTTI and it will nevr be the same again.....

Come july, than i know where i go and wher i stand.. i might stay , i might go...watever it is, MENOTTI is one of the best plc i wrk at and it will always be in my heart and memory...... LIFE WILL NVR BE THE SAME AFTER MENOTTI.....

GST.....Give Some Take.......more

thats the hidden meaning for the some of money given to us .... i got $600 and they pay me in 3 times payment......wahhhhhhh.

wahhhhh FOR how long? i rather they shaft the $600 up to the plce where the sun dun shine than give it to me.....y? give us some money later they take all our money.... look at the rising price of everything.... damn scary , petrol,rice,rental ,erp,transportation,minister pay,minister pay...all go up, only our pay.....NEVER,wen is the last time they say, we will increase PTE sector pay? dun have lo...only GOV sector go up,up, and up....sian,as if ppl in pte sector earn more than in GOV....HAIX

Its getting really difficult to live in sg,the rich getting richer n the poor n middle income family,getting worse...

I dunno how long can we stand n suffer and ponder upon our future generation, they will suffer more ,,, i will make sure by kids... will join the gov sector and enjoy the priveledges....bonus,rebates and much much more.....but wat to do...SINGAPOREAN MA,,, only can talk in blog,frens n taxi driver......but LLPL....cant do anything

My time is up...............

Hi guys, im sorry for not updating the blog...was going thru a bad patch ...I got the news that in 3 month time..Menotti is going to be change to another outlet,a drinking plc with more beers and less food...Y? the changes is due to the fact that Menotti does not generates enough to sustain the high cost of rental and raw product...Some customers are whining that y is there such a need to change the concept and i have to explain that with due respect for my Boss and directors,the changes is more to a business strategy than anything else..

I been here since DAY 1 and yes i admit, wen i heard the news... i go home and cried.Did the changes affect me? yes it did.....very much infact.I was here wen they opened their doors, i was here thru thick and thin and i was here wen Menotti was at its peak and making money......I was here wrking with just 3 staff before, wen the kitchen nearly caught fire,was here wen lots of things happen and i will definitely be here wen Menotti closed its door.....

This is the place where i make a name for myself,wrking my ass off and bring it to where it belong and only to lose it due to higher rental and higher Raw materials, theres nth we can do as we cant increased the priced anymore cos we just did it and by increasing more....we lose customer..

Till than..... i see how my job gonna be but i will produced and continue serving a good quality food and serviced untill we closed the door..........

once in a life

Fyi, I'm a Muslim, but not really a staunch one, but becos of religious beliefs, as well as going thru my religious studies as an RK subject fro O "Levels", it actually enlightened me to the next level.

I am not sure of which religion you're having, but i don't think that will pose any difference. I believe every religion has a fundamentals of relieving sentient beings from suffering in one way or another.

I took Muslim Studies as my O Level subject, and i also join my school's muslim Studies Society, primary to learn more abt the religion.

So during those days, i got to learn abt the meaning of life & death. In a Islam teachings death may mean enlightenment, which is a people going to a Paradise & never need to be reborn to this world of sufferings.Or people who had bad karma will be punished accordingly , or suffer some other things depending on their deeds done in previous life.

I especially agree that a person will feel very upset when thinking of death. Actually, we can feel this upsetness even if we see a funeral of some unfortunate accidents resulting in deaths. Cos we are all humans, have emotions & feelings, so its absolutely normal.

Its not easy to curb such things cos its always in ourself. A people who doesn't drop tears & have emotions isn't normal at all.

For me as a guy, similarly, i can drop tears why I hear an emotional song/music piece or after watching a touching scene from a movie.

I can truly understand that type of feeling you're having. I can tell you is that, everyone will have the same feeling, just that people don't want to face it. I can say that the people working in hospital is the most emotionally strong, cos there're deaths regularly in that place.

My own mindset is, try to accompany parents whenever we can, try to see what they like to do or things that they favour, we try all means to achieve that to make them happen. Its really very ironic, becos we can only be more fillial to parents only when we're at this age. I suppose we are more matured now.

I am not an expert counsellor, so i can't give superb advise to you, but the thing to do is not to take things too hard. Let go a bit, don't dwell into things too much. Thats why when you go for religious lessons, the respective religious teachers could also provide good guidance & advise to students.

Hope that i am not that naggy. I done Quran reading in Secondary school days. Now hardly does it. Its helps to relax mind & stay focus.

I hope this will be meaningful to thoese of u which read it... Y diffrenciate ppl with colour,race or religioun,we all have RED blood.....