Spare the cane ,Spoil the child

At 5 am in the morning im still awake after what happen at 1 am today,i was sleeping bout 11 plus today and tia falls asleep outside,thinking she was tired after i brought her out ...i leave her as it is..

Suddenly i woke up at 12 plus and realised i never had night coupon on the van and thinking of not getting a summon for the van, i went down to tear the coupon.Never did i realised that the coupon ran out and i must walk to the petrol station to get 1.My sis call me and say , oi! your daughter walk up and crying,looking for u..I tot is a small matter and she will go back to sleep...damned i was wrong, the next call was from my EX saying that she is on the way to pick tia up now....

I was so shocked,angry and pissed ,i mean really pissed with tia.Its like,y do u wanna cry and called your mom and makes her come down????

I never canned her before,i pamper her to the extend i think , its too much.So i went back home and scolded her, she cried...and the next thing i know my EX sms me and says she is outside my house. so i look at Tia and tell her straight that u can go home now and dun come and sleep at daddy place anymore, i never meant it but tia was crying, i say i wont pick u up this Sunday and no more anything at all for her,not even her favorite kuda kepang show...when she see i was angry, she says DADDY ...NO, I WANNA STAY HERE AND IM SORRY...I was still angry at that time and just pull her to the door and pass her to the mum and i went in...I dunno wat to do and i regret every action i made, but wat pisses me off, when she is at my EX place and when my EX left her with the maid or the parents, she wont cry or even bother bout wat time my EX comes home .But Y SHE IS MAKING A BIG FUSS WHEN I WEN MISSING FOR AWHILE?

Its not easy, raising kids up and now i know how all the moms felt raising children up...

Never be the one that can cause a family to break up!!!

I dunno y i just CANT ignored this... i wish i could and i wish i would,it really got nth to do with me at all..its your life,your body and your sins

I recently met up with a long lost friend and we talk for awhile and asking each other bout life, told my friend that I'm a single dad and been divorced since 2002 and my Friend told me bout she being neglect by her husband and now having a bf which is still married( WHICH IS STILL MARRIED MEANS...GOT WIFE,GOT KIDS AND STAYS TOGETHER) ....So i ask her, WTH u thinking and sleeping with someone else husband? dun u felt for the wife?( i mean u r wife yourself) and for the kids( the cute and innocent kids that thought the mum loves the dad and vice versa..the family that goes out on weekend and the hubby which flirt on weekdays.I was thinking ..omg,where is your dignity and compassion as a wife/mother and human being, yes we have needs in life,but u dun have to sleep with someone husband just for the needs.
I ask her y and she explains that ,the 2 of them have many things in common and on the same boat,which she said to me,my BF wife nvr sleeps with my bf after the child is born....AND i asked her, how u know? she answer...my bf tell me!!!! MY BF TELLS ME? of cos your bf will be sounding like one hell of pathetic old man and says he nvr gets sex from the wife...cos he wanted to just have it with u , i said...

SHE got so angry bout this... i mean , she is an educated woman and she can be so gullible in trusting mans word? OMG! i was shocked at this,i respect her cos she single handedly raised her daughter and the respect i have before...just gone like a wind..... think bout the fate of the wife and kids,what if the wife found out? wat if they got a divorced cos of your affair? is it fair on the kids? the wife? i dun give a damn bout wat your bf and u did.. i was just thinking bout the wife and kids.. they are kept in the dark and thinking they have a great dad and hubby which stays at home on Sunday and bring them out ...but wat they dunno is the great hubby and dad was screwing outside of home... i just hate and despise these ppl and LOOK HERE, U KNOW WHO U R AND U MAY NOT LIKE WAT I SAY OR WAT I DO...EVEN IF U TELL YOUR BF BOUT THIS , I DUN GIVE A DAMN AND HE KNOW WHERE TO FIND ME.....what u both do are just a shameless act of behaviour which leads to suffering of the kids if found out...If u wanna get a bf,get a single guy and i wont say all this things at all....

HATE ME OR LOVE ME...... FOR REAL I DUN GIVE A SHIT BOUT WAT U THINK OF ME!
THIS IS ME,LIKE IT OR NOT.......

Disappointment to a noble soul is what cold water is to burning metal; it strengthens, tempers, intensifies, but never destroys it

Ones best success comes after their greatest disappointments

Heard this long time ago and never thought i would look up upon that words now...All my life i been struggling,in my career,my relationship,my life and everything else...to me, i never seen happiness that goes on and on,no matter how beautiful the roses is,there is still torns in it.No matter how smooth the road is,there is still hump and road crack along it.

Y I'm saying all this, is because,after a year or running ELEVEN@BUSSORAH , we made a decision to closed it due to the fact that the landlord insist on increasing the rental to an amount we are not happy with and when we made the decision to leave.....someone from middle east took it up.Look how money makes the world change, If i have that money,things will be very different.I'm just normal chef who wanna have a decent job serving quality food for a normal price..my profit is very little but I'm happy with that.Good food should not be expensive

SAD.DISSAPOINTED.ANGRY.HEPLESS....this is all that i felt right now.I cant do anything much but see where all this brings me,luckily i have teaching as a backup on my free times like in secondary sch,offices and of cos in SITI"s Delights. I learn to take things easy and let it go... i learn than no matter what happen,life goes on..

To those who have been supporting me and frequent eleven,I'm sorry i failed u ppl.I thought it would last,but i lost to others who have more financial support,i let u down...SORRY.


I will find a new place soon and do wat i do best at...cooking for u ppl.

THANKS FOR THE GREAT YEAR

Andri

KUDA KEPANG

Its really been awhile since my last blog and finally i update it again.I'm not going to talk bout wat had happen to me and my silence but I'm writing bout something which I'm always fascinated about...


There are several possible origins of Kuda Kepang. It is said to derive from the struggles of “Wali Songo”, a group of nine Islamic preachers in Java. Others said it originated from the movement of horses commanded by Ali, the fourth Muslim Caliph. There are several dance rhythms or patterns: the 'Sola', 'Selendang', 'Pak Tani', 'Pucuk Rebung', 'Perjuangan', and 'Mempertahankan Diri'. The bobbing movement of the performers and their horse puppet is called 'Lenggang Kiprah'.

The kuda kepang trend have long been introduced and performed in SG,during wedding and other ceremony and now the popularity of this dance is so great that u see in on every weekend.

I was fascinated by them since i was young and never got a chance to come so close till now when my younger brother joined a local kudang kepang group called Treo Jadti Limo.Week by week i follow and observed and week by week i wanted to be a part and learn bout this beautiful culture which makes family comes together and watch the troupe perform, i was so enticed with their dance movement and dance and i tell myself..ONE day ,i wanna ride on the house and feel it for myself.

I really respect every single one of them which perform and keep the culture alive, to those who involved in kuda kepang scenes..I have the highest respect for each one of u i hope u keep the dreams of persevering the culture no matter what it takes and how hard it takes.....

There Goes another friend of mine....

ANOTHER MISTAKES ANOTHER LIFE GONE


27th March ....at 6 am in the morning,when the morning prayer call is being heard,My friend will say his last prayer and breath.He was sentenced to death for trafficking of drugs in early 2009.
I known him for 20 yrs now,a quiet guy with a great sense of humor and a loving son to single mum.Someone which i called a friend and a buddy.He will always be someone willing to help a friend in need and never say no to helping a friend.
This fri will his last day living and yes im sad,everybody makes mistakes but to die for a mistakes is a bit too drastic.Imagine a life cut short,imagine the agony the mum got to go thru and the loves one...
The law insist that he was responsible for the many drugs addict and life wasted,but i beg to differ.IF DRUG TRAFFICKER IS RESPONSIBLE FOR THE LIFE LOST AND SUFFERING, SO DOES POLITICIAN,THEY TOO DESTROY LIFE AND PEOPLE.

To my dear fren,i will always pray for u and u will always be in my heart and mind.Your body might not be around but your spirits stays on.I wish i could do more than just praying for u,but my hands are tight.

28th FEB 2009

The day have come for me to perform for a live paying audience...Its not that i never do it before,its just that this one was different from the rest as all eyes will be looking at my 3 recipe 1) PRAWN IN CREAMY GARLIC 2)FRITATTA WITH MIXED VEGETABLES AND 3) BREAD LASAGNE... This is being sponsored by 3 big names in SG, which is WORLD KITCHEN,TURBO AND GARDENIA BREAD..The past few weeks have been a terrible week for me as i had some personal problems and issues which makes me having bad mood and feeling terrible.I was oso feeling nervous bout the events,putting me on a stage with CHEF SITI MASTURA was like putting me on a stage with GORDON RAMSEY OR JAMIE OLIVER( the different is she is more beautiful than the other 2) I have so much respect for CHEF SITI that she is the only one i listen to most of the time cos she is so neutral in giving advice and very good in giving one too. The day starts of good and i was very nervous until it starts,Once its start, i cant fumble or makes mistakes...as its live audience and its 230 ppl around me.Just imagine how i felt and OMG i was nervous.....very in fact. The ppl makes me feel comfortable and was very supporting and encouraging,despite the late start and some hiccups from the organiser, thinks went well,BUT I GUESS I WONT BE DOING THINGS LIKE THIS IN THE NEAR FUTURE...I wanna go back to my old life,life as a working chef and not a CELEBRITY CHEF.I just wanna be someone telling me that my food is really nice and not just to hear ppl say," hey ANDRI. I SAW U ON TV/PAPER THAT DAY".....I think i had enough of that and like i say before..ITS NOT THE FAME THAT I SEEK,BUT THE AWARENESS I CREATE.... I felt like at times i felt it takes too much time of my working hours to prepared all this and its just not worth all the trouble..A celebrity will fade, but a chef good food will be remembered..... I was happy that the event went well,too well and at the end of the day, i have lots of ppl taking pictures and recipe from me,at times i wish they would give the 3 chef involved a fair share of treatment and not just me, i never wanna over shadow my MENTOR CHEF SITI AND CHEF KOO cos these 2 ppl, really is the ppl i respect alot. I was truly happy with the write up they wrote in the papers and i thanks all of u who came and support me a very big thank u from the bottom of my heart..I refuse to call or name them as MY FANS.They are not a fans but they r my elderly,frens and even i love to called them my relatives.... TO TIA...DADDY IS STILL THE SAME AND NEVER FOR ONCE DADDY FELT LIKE A CELEBRITY,DADDY WILL ALWAYS LOVE U AS LONG AS DADDY LIVE.....

It happen too often and too frequent!!!!

What i meant by IT HAPPEN TOO OFTEN AND TOO FREQUENT is when ever i had problems or i think I'm going to have a problem, i become so agitated and getting pissed for no obvious reason.I get frustrated easily and i think the cutting down if nicotine intake make it worse..

I pity those around me, its not their fault but asking the wrong question or comments will easily make me angry and flare up for no apparent reason,i dun like talking on the fone or meet anyone during this time i will work/sleep/work/sleep.

I guess its the frustration that i have in me that trigger this odd behaviour maybe cos i dun share and nvr will share my problem...( its just me)

To those ever experience this treatment from me, I'm sorry....the problem i face and going thru is something i cant resolve nor fight.I just have to go thru it with my head up and wide smile..just because im CHEF ANDRI!!

Its suck to be where i am now and sometimes i just wish im just ANDRI and not THE CHEF ANDRI...

Ur My Everything

Look at her, a beautiful child created by GOD for a man like me..What else could i say bout her.A beauty in a making,a lovely but can be a bit MANJA little gals.I have people telling me that i pampered her too much and she is a spoilt brat in the making,Every time i hear that,i just smile and answer to them..IF I DUN PAMPER HER,WHO ELSE SHOULD I PAMPER?

My last blog i talk bout WOMAN CHARTER...Yes i admit i have to spend or spending alot of Tia,but i nvr blame nor regret even abit.She is innocent as far as im concern and what ever amount of money i gave was supposedly to be meant for her and her education...

Tia grew up in my eyes from a child to a young gal with a mind on her own,believe it or not some of my decision in life is inspired by her and at times she is the one telling me what to do or what decision to take..

I spend quality times with just her so that i can give her my up most attention and times, mind u ..i was not even allowed to on my computer or sms too often while i was with her ,if not she will say ..Y daddy u always so busy?

MARRIAGE is still a NO NO for her.. she still wans me for herself and only herself( maybe its because my ex somehow make her feel that way after she remarried in 2005)
Tia now in Pri 1 and coping very well in school and goes to religious class on every Sat and that's leaves SUN always for us...

We spend lots of SUNDAY together and im afraid to hurt her if i brought along a fren with me too often. Kids is the most innocent human on earth as their heart and mind is like a white sheets of paper and the colour will keep adding on when she grows up.....TIA is a direct replica of me and that's make me feel comfortable,I wan her to be wise in education as well as street smart in life.... We all need a balanced of both to go thru this life ...LIFE WAS NEVER A BED OF ROSES,EVEN IF IT IS..THERE IS STILL TORNS IN THE ROSES TO BE WARY BOUT.......

WOMAN CHARTER ---------<--@

HOW MANY KNOW WAT IS THIS WOMAN CHARTER?



The Women's Charter was passed in 1961 to protect the rights of women and girls in divorced proceeding.Usually this law will make sure woman have they say in most things, MAINTENANCE,CHILD SUPPORT, PERSONAL SUPPORT AND THOSE RELATED TO NOTHING BUT MONEY TO THE WOMAN...

U noticed y i highlighted 1961 . That's when the law was pass out and never change till now..WTF!!!!1961 MEE SIAM COST 30 cents only.... Its been awhile they never change the law and i guess it should change now.In 1961 all married woman are housewives but in 2009 some woman draws more pay than man.In 1961 woman abused/child abuse by drunk husband is often told ,in 2009 some man are abused by wife and infidelity from a wife is on the rise and yet the STUPID LAW NEVER CHANGE OR REVIEW ,THUS IS UNFAIR TO SINGLE DAD OR EX HUSBAND!!!!!

In these modern society some woman climbs higher than man in corporate ladder,they earn more and wear the pants at home, but when it comes to divorced,they seek help from WOMAN CHARTER AND BE A VICTIM .I and thousand over more was a victim to them, having to obliged and pay our ex wife... basically for ex husband to call them unfair is just so right and accurate...look at the statue, the woman carry a weight with her eyes close.....wat does that means?IT MEANS THAT THE LAW IS BLIND OR THE WOMAN IS BLIND!!!! screw them !

Single dad wont have a hse to stay,cos single mom got custody,single dad have to pay maintenance to kids and wife when the woman got custody but wen the man had custody..the woman does not need pay the man ,every time when the woman feels poor and need a pay rise, they dun have to ask their BOSS,they just ask WOMAN CHARTER and they have a case to proceed with the man ...THESE ARE SOME OF THE ISSUE ,I WANTED TO TELL U MORE BUT I TIRED AH!

For me and most ex husband in SG ..we r maintaining a 5k commitment with a 1k salary...possible? F*%k !!! of cos not possible.. I was ask by the court to cut down cigarettes and i can have more money to pay my ex..U know wat i felt like telling the judge? U BETTER KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT BEFORE I SHAFT THE CIGARETTES UP YOUR ARSE!!! but i never say of cos..u think i crazy ah?

For now i just pay wat i was expected to pay for TIA and its getting more n more expensive and in the end,i dun even have enough for myself..TIA is getting more and more expensive.........
This is one reason y i never talk bout marriage and such cos i cant afford it..let alone a shopping spree or even holiday...

I tell myself i just work hard for others and that's wat I'm still doing, the money i earn Will disappear within few days of my pay day and that can make me have tears in my eyes.....SO I HOPE THEY CHANGE THE LAW SOON IF NOT MAN WILL SUFFER WHILE WOMAN IS ENJOYING THE MONEY THEY SQUEEZE FROM THEIR EX HUSBAND....

TOUGH TIMES DUN LAST ....TOUGH PEOPLE DO!!!

Read the title and think bout it......everyone had their tough times and no one is spared,its just a TEST FROM GOD to his follower,just to see how our faith in him and how well we cope...

I had my tough times when my whole marriage collapse,me going to prison and much much more,those are the times i felt low and lost.Some had worse than me and some just being hit over and over again.
During these times...who whould stay for u? be there for u? anyone? someone? no one? FOR ME....NO ONE!, and i feel so outcast and dissapointed bout it... And i promised myself if anyone closed to me having their tough times....I WILL BE THERE FOR THEM NO MATTER WHAT !! THAT MY PROMISED AND I WILL KEEP IT!!

What happen in life happen for a reason,when human crossed path is because we r meant to be, they maybe be there for a day,a week ,a season or even a lifetime,but they are there for a reason and we never know y...

Life is short, break the rules, forgive quickly,
kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably,
and never regret anything that made you smile.


REMEMBER WHAT I SAY.....THE DARKER THE SKY THE BRIGHTER THE STARS

she believe in me.................

A wonderful song which everyman loved to listen,all of us man is waiting or finding someone who believe in us despite our past or set backs. A song which reminds me that true love does exist and somewhere out day,they will be a gal who loves us truly and unconditionally... God makes empty space in our hand is for us to find another pair to fit in it.....








SHE BELIEVE IN ME

While she lays sleeping, I stay out late at night and play my songs
And sometimes all the night can be so long
And it's good when I finally make it home, all alone
While she lays dreaming, I try to get undressed without the light
And quietly she says how was your night?
And I come to her and say, it was all right, and I hold her tight

And she believes in me, I'll never know just what she sees in me
I told her someday if she was my girl, I could change the world
With my little songs, I was wrong
But she has faith in me, and so I go on trying faithfully
And who knows maybe on some special night, if my song is right
I will find a way, find a way...

While she lays waiting, I stumble to the kitchen for a bite
Then I see my old guitar in the night
Just waiting for me like a secret friend, and there's no end
While she lays crying, I fumble with a melody or two
And I'm torn between the things that I should do
And she says to wake her up when I am through,
God her love is true...

And she believes in me, I'll never know just what she sees in me
I told her someday if she was my girl, I could change the world
With my little songs, I was wrong
But she has faith in me, and so I go on trying faithfully
And who knows maybe on some special night, if my song is right
I will find a way, while she waits... while she waits for me!

As I grow in age, I value women who are over 30 most of all. Here are

just a few reasons why:



A woman over 30 will never wake you in the middle

of the night to ask, "What are you thinking?"

She doesn't care what you think.

If a woman over 30 doesn't want to watch the game,

she doesn't sit around whining about it. She does something she

wants to do. And, it's usually something more interesting.

A woman over 30 knows herself well enough to be

assured in who she is, what she is, what she wants and from whom.

Few women past the age of 30 give a hoot what you might think about her or

what she's doing.

Women over 30 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with

you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course,

if you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you, if they think they can get

away with it.

Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know what

it's like to be unappreciated.

A woman over 30 has the self-assurance to introduce you to her women friends.

A younger woman with a man will often ignore even her best friend because she doesn't trust the guy with other women. Women over 30 couldn't care less if you're attracted to her friends because she knows her friends won't betray her.

Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to a

woman over 30. They always know.

A woman over 30 looks good wearing bright red lipstick. This is not

true of younger women. Once you get past a wrinkle or two, a woman over

30 is far sexier than her younger counterpart.



Older women are forthright and honest. They'll tell you right off if you are a

jerk if you are acting like one! You don't ever have to wonder where you stand with

her.

Yes, we praise women over 30 for a multitude of reasons. Unfortunately,

it's not reciprocal. For every stunning, smart, well-coiffed hot woman

of 30+, there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a fool of

himself with some 22-year-old waitress.

Ladies, I apologise.

Sarong Party Gal (part 2)

this song will make it all clear!

I’M DREAMING OF A WHITE HUSBAND
(to the tune of ‘I’m Dreaming of a White Christmas’)

I’m dreaming of a white husband
Just like the ones on TV shows
So I stake out Boat Quay
Or Ho-lland Vee-ee
To snag some rich expat ang-mors

I’m dreaming of a white husband
I read about in women’s mags
I’m an SPG, all right
And I want my husband to be white

ANOTHER EXPLAINATION OF SPG

Busty women in their mid 20-30s who have a splinter stuck in their cerebral cortex which causes them to think that local guys are pathetic. they go for ang mohs with hairy chests, with stale breath after a hangover...slightly unbuttoned long sleeve shirts...loaded guns..fat wallets..and a huge amount of fatty deposits blocking theiy coronary arteries.

ANOTHER EXPLAINATION...

stupid bitches who let foreigners fuck them for free hoping they will will marry them, only after the hangover do they realise that she will be passed on like meat to be fucked by other foreigners. They achieve such high level of stupidity that they brag about being fucked by foreigners, soon they cannot go without being fucked for free. to them being fucked by forigners is like shitting, one cannot go without shitting, right





MY LAST WORDS FOR SARONG PARTY GALS OUT THERE....IF U GALS STARTS CHARGING THE ANG MO FOR SEX...U ALL COULD SHARE AND BUY ONE COUNTRY AND CALLED IN (REPUBLIC OF SPG)wink wink

I MAKE MISTAKES ....IM JUST A MAN

A lyric taken from a BON JOVI..... its just a simple lyric ,but the meaning means alot ..MAN ,wat can u say bout them? We are just a normal being, with mind,attitude and dignity( applies to some MAN only)
We like to be pampered,but never like to pamper...We like attention,but never wanna give any...we like companion,but never like to be tied down..WE RATHER BE A FREE FLYING BIRD THAN THE ONE SITTING IN A CAGE...that's man for u

DO MAN FLIRT? real man do flirt! that's in every man on earth...just that the level of flirting is different..some man just flirt decently some man flirt all the time and some just flirt for the sake of their so called EGO booster...just look at the movie JOHN TUCKER.. is he a bad guy? Casanova? player? NO HE IS NOT...he is just a confused young man which dunno wat he wants and who he wants...he is not bad..

I flirt to a certain extend to.... but harmless .Never think that u can change a man cos its easier to train an animal than train a man...
Man wont change for anything and certainly not for their gf or frens..the only things they change is for themselves when they realise that the changes is good for them....

Real man do cry...this is a fact, he can be a hardcore prisoner, a jerk ,a gangster or even the world strongest man..but when there is time to cry, they Will...maybe not when others around, but they cry wen they are alone.........

NEVER BE INDEBTED TO ANYONE..........

Sounds familiar? everyone at one time or another will feel this way..I'm feeling it often. YA YA YA...its good in away that ppl paying attention to u,helping u in anyway they can or possibly could. A gf might do things for her BF, a BF might do thing for his GF or even between HUSBAND and WIFE...

BUT


DO U THINK THEY EXPECT SOMETHING FROM U? DO U THINK THEY WANTED U TO DO WAT THEY DID FOR U?
I know some of u will disagreed with my answer...but my answer is YES!!!

They will want u to do the same things for them or to them, they wanted to get the same treatment like wat they given u , and when they dun get it, they think u ungrateful, never take your initiative and such... I mean y would they wanna us to do thinks we never do before? y they wanna compare us just because their ex did all that before and y they wanna even bring up this subject at all...U say I love u ,cos u meant it.not because she wanna hear u say it...than which means u say it cos she wanted u to say it...
So...for me,i never wanna be indebted,to any body and not even to my own parents or relatives...i will worked on my own, i will get on my own..... cos to me UNCONDITIONAL LOVE is the best LOVE to get,but not everyone can give u that...

so , to all couples out there, never expect your partner to be wat u wanna be, cos it wont happen and wont last...and never never be indebted to anyone cos it will be a matter of times, u will be call,ungrateful,never use your initiative and even they will start to demand ! SO..if u never indebted to them, u dun mind saying no or rejecting them...but wat if u r indebted? can u say no? yes u can...but its hard......

Never treat someone like your world, cos u die alone...... and when u die, u leave the world and everything that's in it..........

2007! 2008! 2009! wats the difference? I STILL FEEL EMPTY!!

2009! Starting of a new year,new beginning, Wats the meaning of NEW YEAR NEW BEGINNING when i still feel EMPTY inside?

Its been like this since 2002 and i still feel the same,year in year out.I dun even know that times have past so fast until i saw how TIA grow .She is in pri 1 now and coping well with school and new family.SOMETIMES I WISH I HAD A FAMILY,a wife to come home too, a wife to hug me to sleep,to share my sorrow and laughter,kids at home to run about and watch TV and even eat together,family day on Sunday to go picnic or zoo....DEAR GOD,LISTEN TO WAT I HAVE TO SAY PLEASE" I MISS THOSE TIMES AND I'M NOT FAKING IT"!!!!!

I know i wont get that feeling anymore cos,firstly...Tia dun allowed me to get marry and i cant afford another marriage.

Others who saw me, always see me smiling and happy always, i dunno how i could hide from everyone including ppl closed to me...BUT know, i wan u all to know the truth,I WAS NEVER HAPPY...NEVER. the happiness i portray is just a cover up for the sorrow i had inside,believe it or not, i still at times cried to sleep and y sleeping is the only things i do? is because sleeping makes me stop my sadness and worry,its not a long term solution,just a temporary one..but it does help me alot.

I dunno wat will makes me forget all this sadness and trouble,i hope GOD can give me the answer or at least show me the light.....

I pick up this words from someone close to me...

LEARN NOT TO ACCEPT PROMISES,SO U WONT BE REJECTED BY EMPTINESS
LEAN HOW TO KEEP A DISTANT FROM HOPE,SO U WILL NOT MEET UP WITH DISAPPOINTMENT

DOGS OF GOMEN!!!!!

Being a law abiding citizen and living in a country with lots of laws, i really respect what these officer have done to keep our nation the way it is now..but still some organisation are doing dirty tactics just to show that our taxes are being make into good use by paying them.....

To me , they are just despicable people, i tell u an incident.I dunno if its gonna get me in SHIT,but i still wanna blog bout it...ITS MY BLOG ANYWAY!!!!

I knew someone which was release for a drug trafficking offence( i have my fair share or frens right?) After release from prison and trying his best to get back to society, he was approached by a young man....This young man says that he knew him long time ago when he was doing drugs, as my fren trying to recalled , they exchange nos...THAT'S WHERE THE WHOLE THINGS BEGINS....

they exchange sms few times,but just a normal sms,asking hows things, where my fren stay and works and where he party often....THAN, One day...the young man ask if he can get supply of drugs.....My fren say dun have and every day he been asking the same question ,and even saying that he is sick and need to get a fix, if not he can go crazy and even willing to pay double or triple the amount!!! MONEY IS THE ROOTS TO ALL EVIL..

My fren thought, he was just helping the young man and can earn few extra bucks, so he try to search for it and manage to get from one of his old frens.......HE met this young man, exchange items and yes....he was nab for trafficking, just like that....SO ALL THE WHILE, THIS YOUNG MAN WAS AN UNDERCOVER NARCOTIC OFFICER... My fren was charge with trafficking and was sent to prison to serve a long long term....

That y i say, these ppl are despicable in doing all these things....they could get the lead, could not haul any drugs, and they resort to all these tactic, some narcotic undercover even used gals as bait and such, how low can they resort to? I WILL NVR RESPECT ANYONE WITH THAT BATCH AND I THINK I HAVE MY RIGHT NOT TO RESPECT U AS LONG AS I STAY OFF DRUGS AND NVR DEAL WITH ANYTHING LIKE THAT....

Have u ever wonder, where all the confiscated drugs/ unpaid licence cigarettes all gone to? they nver show how its being disposed and nobody even knew?

Maybe , they are back in our streets, maybe they ask those illegal foreigner to sell it for their flight money back home after their 3 month imprisonment?

U DUNNO, I DUNNO....... BUT THAN AGAIN.... THINK BOUT IT???

My Obsession with WORK!!!!

I dunno if these sickness even exist? do they?

ALL these years i been working my ass to proved that i can make it, i can be someone that i wanna be....I get my Title as Chef de Cuisine, I work in one of the few prestigious Italian restaurant (GARIBALDI GROUP ) I'm the only local Chef de cuisine they have and another 6 CDC are all Italian...I'M proud of it, and if nobody else feels like how i felt, i dun care....cos i have proven something to my self and tats all i care....

After all these years of WORK and WORK and WORK....i realised the last time i actually apply for leave and went on a holiday is in yr 2002 with my ex wife....its 2008 now and for freaking 6 yrs...i nvr stop thinking of work!!!! Gosh! i myself could not believe that i actually do it...

I guess that's Wat i called, obsession with work.....I guess money is a factor too, i wanted to save for TIA ,and barely had enough for myself... Those who thinks CHEF earns alot, i say BALLS TO U...

Working gave me sense of satisfaction and entertainment,no 2 guest are alike, no 2 food are the same,maybe abit similar? yes i agreed...but nvr the same....I NVR spend Chirstmas,Chinese New Year,and most of the holidays at home...its always work work n work......

Due to my working scheduled, i lost some good frens or even gf...but than again, i never regret, U cant take my work? GET LOST...U cant take Tia? GET LOST...U wanna question my answer?Get lost.....U wanna constant argue with me? GET LOST...U wanna be sticky and says i cant spend time with u?GET LOST.....I BEEN SAYING LOTS OF GET LOST TO A NUMBER OF PPL.....simply because, i am living my dream now and not only dreaming......

When is the time we dun need our relatives?

Have u guys felt like this before ? sometimes i do and i believes some of u will oso felt the same way....

I have a fren ( close fren) who once told me before,He dun need any relatives as long as his 5 siblings stick together....lets call my fren..ANDY....

Andy is a divorcee and staying with his parents after his divorced, Andy had 5 closely knitted siblings, 3 boy and 2 gal.... 2 of Andy siblings got married and stays on their own and only left another 2 stays with him at Andy parents place.
The problem started when Andy DAD remarried to another woman without Andy moms approval, than all the problem starts.Being the eldest,Andy worry alot bout this problem and been losing sleep bout it, wats the worse could happen? divorced? its easier said than done, Andy mom is not working and taking care of her grandchildren and Andy dad is the sole breadwinner....and if divorced really happen, all the responsibility will be passed to Andy....
Andy relatives ( the dad side) seems to be against the idea of Andy dad marriage and will always tell Andy mom to be patient and such, or even talk to them when needed........SUDDENLY.....all change, the relatives which used to side Andy moms turn around and support the other woman( we called her...hmmmph BITCH ok?) SO some other Andy relatives supported the Bitch and get closed to her and even invited Bitch to Andy relatives gathering and wedding...Andy got puzzled on the sudden change of his relatives,Y ARE THEY EVEN SUPPORTING SOMEONE WHO BROKE UP PPL MARRIAGE??? Andy was angry and still as a jovial guy he acted like nth happen with his HERAN TAK HERAN attitude.... Andy told his siblings no matter wat, the 5 will be together...
One of Andy cousin recently call Andy younger brother and ask to meet at Mac..This cousin is the same age as Andy ,he is one of the few refine man with good background,beautiful kids and a stable career..SO, he started to talk to Andy younger bro and tell him things bout life and such,dun do tattoo,take drugs,play truant,fight and got lock up......Andy on the other hand was a juvenile delinquent, he had a tattoo wen he was is sec 3, playing lion dance, mixing with the wrong company and get lots of trouble in sch and with the police and the Cousins was like a good student , tuition and play piano at home..( I would rather play truants than play the piano....)This cousin was oso trying to coax Andy younger brother not to believe wat Andy mum told him ( as this cousin was oso supporting the BITCH)
Andy sister and the other brother( we call him....BOTAK) was so angry and wanted a confrontation but Andy stop them and ask them to be cool bout it,Andy says y we wanna make ourselves angry bout all this, this are all nonsense and we all just wait and see wat happen next...Botak and the rest of the sibling listen to wat Andy says and just playing the waiting game........for now
Andy told his siblings,WE DUN NEED THESE RELATIVES WHICH SIDE THE BITCH AS THESE RELATIVES DIDN'T FEED ANY OF US WHEN WE R YOUNG, SO WE DUN HAVE TO WORRY EVEN IF WE WANNA IGNORED THEM FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES...WE JUST HAVE EACH OTHER TO RELY..

Andy was so pissed with this shit that he was telling himself, he wont go to any of his relatives outing anymore and even if he go, and if he saw the BITCH over there, he will spit at her face without thinking of the consequences anymore....Andy mixed around alot during his younger days and he believes, to fight for his family pride and dignity is something u have keep and fight for it...EVEN IF IT MAKES HIS RELATIVES HATE HIM....he dun care anymore...

Andy got this massage for all his relatives....IF U NOT HELPING THE FAMILY,DUN HELP AT ALL.......dogs never bites the hands that feeds them,but if u are not the hand, the dogs dun care!!!!!!

ps...BITCH, DUN U EVER LET ANDY SEE U, COS ANDY GONNA HUMILIATE U LIKE U NEVER BEEN HUMILIATED BEFORE...u wanna play game,Andy will play with and when Andy start his game...ANDY SWEAR THIS UPON BOTH HIS LATE GRANDPARENTS.....BITCH, U DUN WANNA MESS WITH ANDY.......

TO THE WORLD U MAY BE JUST ANOTHER PERSON,BUT TO ONE PERSON, U ARE THEIR WORLD!!

"TO THE WORLD U MAY BE JUST ANOTHER PERSON,BUT TO ONE PERSON, U ARE THEIR WORLD"


How true is these words which i just wrote? some would say its not,but many agreed to it.....

We might not realised it, but sometimes, things we do for someone means alot to them just read the following story....


It was a busy morning, about 8:30, when an elderly gentleman in his 80s arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb.

He said he was in a hurry, as he had an appointment at 9:00 am.

I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would be able to see him.


I saw him looking at his watch, and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound.

On exam, it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound.


While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had another doctor's appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry.

The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife.

I inquired as to her health; he told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer's Disease.

As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late.


He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now.

I was surprised, and asked him, 'And you still go every morning, even though she doesn't know who you are'?

He smiled as he patted my hand and said, ''She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is.'

I had to hold back tears as he left. I had goose bumps on my arms and thought, '! That is the kind of love I want in my life'.

True love is neither physical nor romantic.

True love is acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

With all the jokes and fun that are in e-mails, sometimes there is one that comes along that has an important message.

This one I thought I could share with you.

The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything they have.

In this senario, the wife is the old man world.....and the man is living in his world....how many of us would do like that?...

TO THE WORLD U MAY BE JUST ANOTHER PERSON,BUT TO ONE PERSON, U ARE THEIR WORLD , after what i been thru in life, im not ready to be anybody world yet.....

We meet people everyday in our daily life..... we have frens in every stages of life and we have people or relationship that at times affect our life....

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done..
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on..

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season..

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person and put w hat you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life,
whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

This is for SPG ( Sarong Party Gal)

This blog is dedicated or directed to all SPG( no matter how u living in denial) I still call u SPG

Definition of SPG Sarong Party Girl (also known as SPG or Sarong Party Girl)from a dictionary.................. is a derogatory term used in Singapore and (to a lesser extent) in Peninsular Malaysia.
It describes a local Asian woman (e.g. Chinese, Malay, Indian) who usually dresses and behaves in a provocative manner, and who exclusively dates and prefers white men. This can be considered a variant of the Pinkerton Syndrome. The term first achieved international notoriety after the 1994 publication of Jim Aitchison's book "Sarong Party Girl", which offered a satirical portrayal of the SPG and related aspects of Singaporean culture

Definition of SPG from Ah BENG .............SARONG PARTY GIRL/SPG
A pejorative term describing local girls who will only go out with Caucasians. The stereotypical “SPG”, as she is usually abbreviated, is extremely tan, and skimpily-dressed


Definition of SPG from ME............they just a disease and crap OH...WE EVEN HAD JOKES BOUT SPG

How many Sarong Party Girls does it take to screw in a light bulb? None. Sarong Party Girls don't screw anything that's yellow (they only screw kuai lo).


Throughout my working career, i came across lots of SPG and SPG wannabe..They will only date and lay their eyes on WHITE..There are 2 types of SPG that we can see,

1) Fugly....they one dat date ang mo cos they r ugly and only ang mo can screw
anything that wears a skirt and lipsticks!!
2) Atas ones... they r the one which thinks that local man are not a good lover
and wanted to marry ang mo,their mission is do or die!!
AFTER THIS 2 CATEGORY ,THERS ARE SEPARATED INTO SOME OTHER SUBS CATEGORY....

I work, mingle and even stay with few ang mo myself and do u know wat they think of our SPG.? To them SPG is someone they F%+# FOR FREE!!! thats wat they think, firstly cos ang mo are stingy and wont pay for sex, so that's y they dun mind.
When u talk to SPG, no matter where they come from,ang mo kio, bishan, penang,sarawak or anywhere else....they speaks with a freaking funny accents, an accents they tot makes them sound and be cool, but by actual fact it sounded like SHIT babe......
They dress differently,walk differently and talk differently....but to me, they are no different from CHINA GAL U SAW WALKING IN GEYLANG..
HEY, its true ...but the major different is that CHINA GAL takes money from these man they with and get screw..BUT SPG pays for the ang mo and still get screwed!!!!DUH
I saw many times when it comes to dinner, the SPG will pays for the ang mo and OMG! these ang mo is not that brad pitt kind of ang mo,they are the kind which cant even hook up gals back in their country and suddenly they become exotic in SG....

SPG ,SARONG PARTY GIRLS OR WAT EVER U WANNA CALL THEM...To me u still a diseases and forever a crap..if u not happy with wat i wrote....GO BACK TO MY TITLE PAGE..THIS BLOG IS CALLED.....THIS IS MY BLOG AND I SAY WAT I WANT...

I STUMBLE UPON THESE ARTICLES...

read bout it and u see the truth in it...



I Was Dumped by My Partner
Were you dumped by your girlfriend/boyfriend? Asked someone out but was turned down? Told someone that you love him/her and the answer was “although you are an interesting person, you're just not the one for me”?

Self-confidence and Being Dumped
What most people do when they are dumped is that they start to search for a logical explanation or a reason for what happened. Unfortunately this usually leads them to searching for and finding something wrong within themselves and this serioulsy damages their self-confidence.

Usually, the main reason behind feeling bad after a break-up is a lack of self-confidence. After all, if you were sure that you are a great person who doesn’t deserve to be dumped, you wouldn't have related rejection to a problem within yourself. Instead, you would've found another explanation for it.

The truth is, in some cases the problem may not really lie with you, but with your partner. Just read further and you will see for yourself.

Why Was I Dumped?

The following lines will open your eyes to facts that you may not have been aware of before. After you understand them, you will discover that getting dumped may not be that bad at all.

Love and compensation: The person who dumped you is just a human who is governed by the rules that govern all other humans. One of the main reasons that makes this person fall in love is to compensate for some of his own weaknesses; so if you loved someone who is a methodical thinker, he may dump you if you were very similar to him simply because he may want someone more spontaneous and creative to compensate for his rigid way of thinking. Thus, although you are smart and intelligent, you were still dumped because your partner needs to compensate for his weaknesses and not because you are bad . If you think that the person you fell in love with is superior then wake up and realise that all humans have unmet needs that they need to compensate for, the only difference is that it may not be that visible for some of them.
His/Her unconscious criteria: I have said before that everyone has subconscious criteria for choosing people he falls in love with (see the psychology of falling in love for more information on this). This means that if someone didn’t fit these criteria, the person can never really love the other person even if he was the greatest ever. If one of these criteria was something like “she must be blond, or he must be tall" and you don't fit that, you might get dumped even though there's really nothing wrong with you!
There Is Nothing Wrong with You
The conclusion we can make from all of this is that you could get dumped for many reasons that have absolutely nothing to do with you. In my "book how to get over anyone in few days" i used this concept a lot by convincing the readers that they weren't dumped because of not being worthy or because of being unneeded and the effect was so powerful. In some cases you should even feel pity for the other person who is just searching blindly for a way to compensate for his flaws instead of someone who would really be a dedicated and loving partner. Most importantly, be confident and know your own strengths. If you become confident enough, being dumped won't have any effect on you.





SO, GETTING DUMPED IS SERIOUSLY NOT A PROBLEM AND U DUN HAVE TO BE ALL EMO BOUT IT

Tia Graduation

2 yrs have past and tia graduated from sch....It was held at Swiss Hotel SG and the ticket cost $50 ,they making money man...Tia insist that i go so i just put aside the awkwardness bout seeing my ex wife,new hubby and go cos tia wanted me to go...

One incident happen, while me ,my ex and the hubby was finding tia, her fren which is behind her, asking tia" is that your brother?"( reffering to me) tia answered" no la,thatsmy daddy, i have 2 daddy,this and this". We all acted like we never hear wat she was saying but deep inside me, i realised that tia,accepted the fact that, she had 2 daddy and 1 mommy....

She was performing in a dance and i uploaded the video of her dancing and picture we took... tia, Daddy will always love you till the end of time..

Andri

Will this HAPPEN IN SINGAPORE?

I know i write a lot bout the Gov, how much of a dictator they are and one party ruling and such....SINGAPORE IS REALLY A "FINE" CITY( meaning every Singaporean who lives here will get or issue a fine for one things or another.Car park fine, late payment fine, traffic ,radio and TV fine,income tax fine, never go IPPT or RT oso kena fine,even late payment of water can get fine......HAIX, REALLY A "FINE" "FINE" CITY....

ERP is getting so bad and expensive that i could not afford to drive and most ppl( Singaporean ) cant afford taxi too, try driving to work from 8 to 9.30 and some ERP starts at 7 am, stupid ppl. I really hope those implementing ERP THEIR GRANDCHILD NO BUTTOCK( YES I CURSE U,SO WAT CAN U DO??????

Did the unexpected!!!!!!

I cant explain y, but at times i just wanna spend time alone with tia and do things together,just me and her.....maybe its just a way for me to tell and show her i will nvr neglect her? maybe i just tired of the attention i get and wanted to give her all the attention i want?maybe i just wan her attention? maybe maybe maybe.......in one of the trip we did, was a trip to NIGHT SAFARI...OMG,it was such a ripped off...the ticket was so damn expensive and a family of 5 Singaporean will find that a luxury trip instead of a family trip man......seriously,think bout it...........

I was spending quality time with her and wen on the way out ther is this show by some guys from Borneo , group of fire eaters and dart shooters and dance...tia ask me.." Daddy, u dare or not to do that"? i say.." of cos tia"... and she answer..."Daddy i wanna see".....OOPS!!!!!!

SO, wen they ask for a volunteer, nobody put up their hand and tia insist me on putting it up.....guess wat? I did... i did put up my hand and the guys came down and get me....

THE REST IS HISTORY ......I DUNNO Y I DO IT? BUT I DO IT FOR U TIA!!!!!

time is all we need

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'

DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.

SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.

SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'

SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'

The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.

The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think:

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.

'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.

'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.

The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.

'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.

'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love.

If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours. But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.

I am what I am

At first i dun think of this as a problem but i guess....its really a problem now.I realised it first when CHEF SITI commented on my behaviour,she says something like..Andri,i know u are not someone who flirt but your friendliness towards the opposite sex is sometimes too much that it can be seen as u are flirting and giving them hope....did i? maybe i didn't realised but maybe i did...

Maybe my friendliness is too much,but that's how i treat guys or gals alike,I'm always like that.SHOULD I CHANGE? if changes is easy, i change long time ago,if being friendly is bad, should i stop being friendly? I DUN WANNA BE SEEN AS A FLIRT!

I was just being nice and being me,does not mean after ppl know me from TV,i have to be stuck up like some of them...I'm not even a star or a celebrity,I'm just being WHO I AM AND WHAT I AM!!!!!

Gal or Guys to me is the same, i treat them the same and no difference at all,at time i do even kiss customers or friends on the cheek( not guys la) the one that i have feeling for will be the one to see tia and tia have to like her...cos if she dun like her than no point of being together,I will listen to tia,she is my eyes and my mouth....she will be the one choosing not me,cause i can adapt to whoever she choose but she might not be adapting to whoever i choose.....

So please dun judge me for my behaviour,cos I'm just a man who at times makes mistakes......

Argument is healthy

The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring




Its been awhile since i update the blog and i came across these versed written by a divorced mother of 2 kids,HOW TRUE IS THAT VERSED?

Most will not agreed but i strongly believed that its Damn true.....we all argue,quarrel and fights at times in relationship and its all because we noticed the fault or mistakes that been done, and wen we say it out or point at it?thus the argument erupts and than u start making your points and explain...Argument is healthy babe,if your partner just leave u alone and follow whatever u wish for..i suggest he or she gets a DOG.

Wen we argue, we want our partner to know and realised,we are not happy with Wat she did or say,2 adult in a relationship will have argument and trust me its healthy cos at the end of the day....U GUYS KISS AND MAKE OUT( passionately..lol)

Even our teeth and tongue at times makes mistakes and bite each other.....

Me @ work

My sis drop by with her hubby for a celebration and she took pictures of me in action.The one place that im very comfortable at....KITCHEN...Its my world,my place and my home......