Nightmare!!!!

I woke up at 5 am and have cold sweats all over me, i was having a nightmare...a terrible nightmare which bring me back a story that happen 12 yrs ago..........

I had 3 good friends , we used to do lots of things together,we party, drink,fight and even spend time together everyday....i shall name them....MK,LW and JT.....all of us comes from a different background, Mk parents is rich ,LW was an orphan and JT comes from a broken family..... Mk is the only one who drives and will pick all of us up and home was a condo in the eastern part of SG, Mk parents owns the place and let him stays there with us...work never comes across us and money was easily obtained....illegally.

We do things together and share the daily taking equally,even though Mk is the one who forked out the initial money..Drugs,Girls and clubs is a daily routine and fights happen almost every weekend, we were part of a Gang that was very strong at that time.... we need to just dial few numbers and we have 100 of guys in bout half n hour....we live like prince back than ...

Lw was the guy ppl terrified to even talk as he have an ego as big as Takashimaya, Town was like a home,we spend time there , we did lots of illegal things to sustain the lifestyle...having 1k to spend daily was like an everyday thingy....

One day .LW wanted to be more powerful in this market, instead of just becoming a horse,he wanna be the owner .He talked and discuss bout this and most of us are reluctant to follow as the consequences is really big....BIG MONEY COMES WITH BIG CONSEQUENCES....this is where LW background play a part in his decision, he was an orphan and dun really know who his parents are,he grew up in a home and was pass from house to house till he settle down with his grandma,he is always hungry to show ppl what he is capable of and to get respect from them....as usual 3 of us disagree to his decision and tell him not to think so much bout it....which obviously he didn't listen......

One month later he called and say he need to take out money from the account( we all have a joint account) we asked him y ? he says a new shipment of goods is coming and its cheap,so he wanna to get it... We told him its not a good idea but he insist on doing it for our future......

Finally we give in to him as we know him too well,if we never gave him the cash,he will still try to find it and do it on his own and that's what we dun want to happen.. The day of transaction came and they are suppose to meet at a crowded shopping centre. I dunno who choose the place but we all went ahead as plan...LW being LW dun wish to get us directly involved in the messy business.....we were ask to wait at the car park ,LW and MK went to meet the other party.... half an hour went by and still no sign and i took the initiative to go up and look for them.........

True enough, they are screwed.....both of them is being handcuffed and led away by a group of civilian policeman. I cant go near them ,i cant shout at them, i walk pass them and the way they behave as if they dun know me at all.....that's how we dun wanna get each other in trouble in case anything happen...I went back to the care with a red eyes and told JT what happen... we were at a loss.....we dunno where to go and finally decide to visit MK parents and told them what happen... We finally heard from them and they are allowed to go out on a 50k bailed....Mk parents paid for Mk and we paid for LW using the money we had and source.....

What i heard next from MK really shocked me, he told us that LW insisted that the things were his and MK was just a friend which follow him and never knew bout the transaction... in other words...he wants to be solely responsible for the case......and if he is convicted, it the death sentence for him.....

weeks gone by, MK parents got the best lawyer for him and LW was only granted a nominated lawyer from the courts.....Mk got released soon after that and LW was sentenced ..........TO HANGED!

I cried in court, the 3 of us felt helpless as LW was taken away ,he smiled at us and we got few minutes to talk before he was taken away......HE SAID" PROMISED ME ONE THINGS", I SAY" I WILL PROMISED U ANYTHING BUDDY" LW continued " STOP DOING WHAT WE DID,ITS NOT WORTH IT, TAKE ME AS A LESSON" ....PLEASE!

....That's the word we last hear from him..... we are not allowed to visit him as we r not his relatives,we only write to each other and the date of hanging is really near.......At the day itself, we 3 meet and when to pray for him...we knew at 5 am in the morning after the morning prayer, his life will be gone..... we drive down to prison and saw the funeral van waiting there already, we asked a couple of question and were told that they gonna bathed him in the mosque at the cemetery..........A life is gone cos of greed and power!

We reached the cemetery mosque and few of our friends is there, my few is about 100 of them, i asked to be allowed to shower him and when i saw his body, i couldn't help it but hug the rest to stop me from crying....... the mark on the neck was prominent, and while bathing his nose bleed.... i watch helplessly and i felt my knee began to become week.....They brought me out and ask me to rest , i told them its my buddy body which is in there and i wanna go thru it no matter how hard i felt.......

The burial goes on smoothly without any obstacles, 3 of us promised to heed what LW last words to us.....................

Is this a blessing in disguised or is this sign from GOD? if its a sign.... y lost a life to show me the sign?

LW.....12 yrs have gone by and your face never once we forgotten,if u r here now, u see how successful we have become.... u will be happy for us.........

This is where i got the quotes......TO BE OLD AND WISE, U FIRST HAVE TO BE YOUNG AND STUPID!

Regrets ....a word i usually hate but i always had

Regrets i had a few,but that again to few to mention....Someone told me this quotes few years ago HATE THE SINNER,FORGIVE THE SINS( its still runs deeply in my head)

All of us had regrets, we regrets bout things that we say, we do and encounter,whatever regrets we had ....it always keep on coming back to us.Sometimes we regret how we treat an individual like a friend,your ex girlfriend. We knew we didn't treat them right but we refuse to listen,we knew we hurt them but we refused to admit,we knew that we are give the chance,but we refuse to change....but Y? Y are we so reluctant to change? y we refuse to listen to our heart and do Wat's best for both of u ?

Once wen we alone, than we start to think bout what we did,is it wrong or not? or could we handle the situation better or not? Once a love is lost,it wont come back anymore....but to know if that person love u ....let her go,if she comes back...she is yours forever? that's wat they say

What if someone says that he/she loves u and leave u ? would u feel angry? hurt? or maybe your ex if seeing your old friend which u introduced to when u are together. How would that hurt u ? would u forgo the long friendship? ( i would if its happen to me)

What if your partner keeps on asking u to leave them?maybe they say u be better off without them, or u find happiness if u with someone else.... or what if your daughter hated your partner,would u carry on?

I told everyone, i never REGRETS everything that happens or i gone thru ...that's a lie! .... I DO IN FACT HAVE LOTS OF REGRETS...I'm just making myself feeling happy and living in denial..But wen the things u regrets before happen again in the future...would u know how to deal with it? or would u just do what u did before?

Me and My Singapore Gomen

THE GOVERNMENT SOLUTION TO A PROBLEM IS USUALLY AS BAD AS THE PROBLEM ITSELF!!!!!


Who agreed to what i say ?
How many agreed but afraid to admit?

No matter what your answer will be, its definite a correct things to say, ERP( Everyday Rob People) is one very good example, when we complain bout the heavy usage of a certain road,they simply put a gantry and charge everyone that pass thru it,some driver found alternative road to use in reaching their destination and that particular road will again get jammed with vehicles and what they do????? put another gantry ..

SO MUST WE COMPLAIN BOUT CONGESTION OF JUST KEEP OUT DAMNED MOUTH SHUT?

CPF ( Our hard earn money that they insist on keeping for our old age)
we pay 20%
Employer 14.5%

Look at the figure carefully and see if its balanced? when we work our ass and get more pay,we get deducted more too. Its was meant to be for us to purchased flats and our old age income,BUT when the hell we even owned the flat? our roof is someone else flooring,our wall is someone else wall too...so what we owned? and some of us already owing them money for the cash repayment as our CPF runs dry ( and it was supposed for our old age)

COE for those who wants and afford to owned a car( nowadays its seems everyone can afford one) They say ,its an open market,anybody can bid n have the right....but it seems the only right it have is them to make sure everything is up to them .....think bout it, when the economy is down,new car and loan is easier to get and used car suffer alot....and when company of the used car complained, used car is suddenly in demand and new car slowed....

Election ..most of the area is being control by the Pay And Pay . U will know election is near when u get less parking summons at your place and when your area is extremely clean. Tress planted,lift upgraded,walk way covered and suddenly u see your MOP(members of parliament) at your doorsteps,market and even under your block....
PLS VOTE FOR ME AND I MAKE SURE WE HAVE A GOOD LIVING STANDARD

IR( International Robber) Gambling is never encourage in any of the religion is SG,its said that gambling will makes father forget their family,Mothers neglect their husband,Sons neglect their parents and vice versa.....Monday to Sunday except Tuesday we have our usual Singapore pools gambling and now we have a BIG one coming .....few years back ALEE says cannot and didn't agreed to it and now ALEE say can(dunno y oso)...if we wanna attract tourist we can always suggest,theme park, water world and lots more...not only gambling......Tio bo?

This one really pisses me off....i mean big time......EDUCATION!
Can u imagined hows expensive to put our kids to school nowadays? its really fucking expensive and they are not even promised to be lawyers,teacher,doctor or pilot..... so pay so much for what ? yes its important to study...but by putting extra burden to the family, the father got to really work to put the kids thru education and they always say got subsidy,got grant ,can apply.....but , do u actually know how troublesome to go thru it?


I'm just voicing my unhappiness,cos ppl like me i work day and night ....im still the same, GOT MONEY,PAY THIS PAY THAT ...LEFT FEW HUNDREDS FOR ME TO USED DAILY TO WORK AND WAIT FOR NEXT PAY....HOW LONG? HOW LONG I CAN TAHAN?