Friday, July 24, 2009

Time will tell.....Time will heal....thats what they say




Time will tell? Time will heal?



AFter updating my blog and talk bout the past, i did some soul searching bout me,myself and i......i saw a picture in face book of my ex and guess what? its a new guy in life..I'm not being a sore loser here or being jealous( abit i guess) ...but i dun understand y someone ppl can just act and pretend throughout the entire relationship...Meeting the parents,kids,relatives,siblings and even friends.?


So i guess,time will tell....if we r talking the truth,Time will heal....if we never seek the truth...


I can say ,that religion,belief and different race does not really matter in any relationship,its the heart that change,its the feeling that gone,its the new guy that came....that change everything...My friend always told me that, its easy for u to get gals cos u r chef Andri, i guess that's just bullshit....even Chef Andri got jilted by his Ex...even Chef Andri feeling hurt and cry cos his GF left him.....


Sometimes.... i just wanna be Andri, a simple guy who works hard for a living,but i guess..its a bit too late now,cos i will always be known as Chef Andri and it will be like this for long.I nvr share my feeling,my thoughts with my family and siblings..I dunno how to talk bout all this R/S things with them.I was always keeping all the stuff to myself and let it be known to them,when the time is right..


I guess,this is retribution...retribution to me,what i did in the past,its all coming back.I cant blame anyone except myself, i cant cry as the tears dry up.


In any relationship,i always pity TIA...cos she must be wondering what happen,what went wrong? y daddy is single and i always have to lie to her that my Ex is bz working and hoping Tia slowly forget her ....but most of the time i failed.I fail to hide and always have to lie to tia over and over again..Its just not fair for her ,I really dun wan her to feel this way,but wat can i do or say ? my hand are tied and my mouth is sealed...I just cant tell her,Oh she left us cos she found a better man than daddy, im still the best daddy in her eyes and i dun wish to change that ..


Once a fortune teller told me. 2009 is not a good year,now i know y .....I lost the restaurant, i felt sad bout my past R/S and everything seems to be so wrong...Money makes the world goes round they say , now i believe what they say....When u are someone, u have all the love u want,but if u r nothing...even those u thought who loves u the most...will leave u for a new one.....


LIFE IS CRUEL THEY SAY.....BUT I NEVER IMAGINE,IT CAN BE THIS CRUEL.......


i still remember, the coffee infused bon bon cake with vanilla sauce and ice cream

( a dessert i once make to show my love )


LIFE GOES ON,NO MATTER HOW HARD IT CAN BE.....WHEN U FALL DOWN,THE NEXT TIME U WILL WALK CAREFULLY....

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

ME.......


SOMETHING BOUT ME THAT I FOUND ONLINE.............





Your view on yourself: You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. :You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. :Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job. :You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. :You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. :You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. :You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

HOW DO WE KNOW WHEN ITS REALLY OVER?


WHEN a couple broke up...one of us always wish or hope that we patch things up and reconciled.Maybe cause they gone thru so much and its such a waste to forget the good memory,the intimate moments ,the family gathering,the outing,the things we do for each other or even a holiday spent..


We always thought things will be well and we could kiss and make up .....but sometimes,it never happen.Sometime the things we wait will never come,and thing we do will never moved a heart anymore.We thought with determination,we could move a mountain....but sometimes,its not our determination which is not enough,its the mountain which refuse to move....


WE KNOW WE LOST IT FOREVER WHEN YOUR OTHER HALF SEND U AN EMAIL OR POEM.....like this ....





Of all the things I've believed in I just want to get it over with Tears form behind my eyes but I do not cry, Counting the days that pass me byI've been searching deep down in my soul Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old Feels like I'm starting all over again The last 3years were just pretend And I said,Goodbye to you, Goodbye to everything I thought I knew You were the one I loved The one thing that I tried to hold on to I USED TO get lost in your eyes and it seems that I can't live a day without you. Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time I want what's yours and I want what's mine I want you but I'm not giving in this time your the one thing I tried to hold on to

WOMAN i been with .............


All discarded lovers should be given a second chance, but with somebody else!!


A word which i have used over and over again.I never accept my ex girlfriend once we ended a relationship,I'm not being ego as a man,I'm being realistic as a wise man....I myself have been involved with numerous relationship and I'm gonna write bout what when wrong for both of us..


I been meeting different girls from different age group and races. I had an ex gf which is younger than me, i mean way younger.She is a sweet girl and gets along well with tia .The problem started when she goes church regularly.I knew for once....it wont last anymore,we been thru alot together and yes at times i admit I'm being too much in controlling her movement and such as secretly I'm afraid to lose her, to lose her to someone better and younger...I love her ,love her too much to be afraid of losing her at one point...cos i felt she have the patience and tolerant for my f*%# up attitude at times. Yes i admit i have an attitude,attitude that only certain woman can tolerate and when i knew they can tolerate me, than i knew that they love me...


I been with a single mom b4 too, she had a young daughter and everything is good and religion was not a problem as she already converted.Our problem is that we have differences, i mean a major one.She like to go out often with family,and I'm the kind of man ,who rather stay home.We get along well,the kids loves each other and one day, her ex bf which is my fren comes by to stay at her place after he been released from prison, i knew they been communicating when he is inside and he was asking her for a place to stay after he released.Yes she told me bout it but i was telling her of the inconveniences that may occurs ,my only fault is not to tell her that I'm jealous and afraid that she goes back to him one day ....the fear i had came one day ,wen she goes out to a party with her ex and ignored all my sms and can even lie bout coming home.I knew i lost her..... and her reason for parting is that we r very different, i dun like to go out and she loves to go out......


I met a beautiful lady with a good career as a director of a company.She is the envy of woman and a much sought by man.the problem with her is her possessiveness, i was not allowed to talk,mix or even mingle with other gals, she just want me for herself and does not even prefer tia to be there...i dun have to tell y i left her , NOBODY can compare to tia


I had gals working as nurse b4, i tot is a good idea as we work shift and we will understand each other,but I'm wrong too, she is too demanding for me.She wants too much attention and can be bit emo at times, i left her cos i dun need a MAD woman in my life..


I was involved with a gal which have just broke up with her b4 of 2 yrs, i tot i was a rebound and proceed slowly and cautiously. She keeps on saying that I'm not a rebound,but u will know and can feel that u r just a shelter that she needs at that time..i left her cos i nvr trust that she would love me whole heartedly........


THIS are some of the woman i been with and my past makes me what my present self it, to take one day at the time is the best way for me,to take a slow step rather than a big leap is the best solution for me and to love someone little by little is a good way for me ....

Sunday, July 19, 2009

PAST/PRESENT/FUTURE


Not a day goes by without your picture invading my mind. Every little thing reminds me of you. Little words fly around me and I suddenly see your face. My smile dims away, my mind travels to the time when we were together, I remember your words, your poems, And now when I’m sick and lonely and can’t move, I remember the shy touch of your hand. I have what you wanted me to have but it’s all for nothing, nothing can make me happy. Couple of days ago a friend told me to move on, why do I hate myself for wishing to do that. Holding on to a memory is painful, but letting go is not easy, or is it just my addiction to sadness that’s keeping you alive inside my heart. lies and fake smiles are all I have, pretentious hate for the world and life which people can see through is my MASK.


The past makes the present but it wont be a future.......

I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me - I’m going to smile

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Just a sad quotes and song






Mengapa kau melarikan diri muKu rasa sayuKu ingin kau di samping kuSeperti waktu dahuluKemana kau menghilangkan diri muKu rasa rinduKu mencari mu di singgah sana Dan aku . . .Hilang tempat bermanjaKau pula . . .Bersuka riaKemana kau menghilangkan diriKu yang mencari . . .Manakah janji dan sumpah setia muYang kau beri kan kepada ku . . .Apakah kesalahan ku pada muDan juga tingkah laku ku ituSehingga kau menghilangkan dirimuDan aku kehilangan mu Tolonglah kembali ke pangkuan kuKu ingin bersama muSeperti waktu dahuluKita berdua . . .Gembira . . .




What if i said you never mattered that i never lost a moment of sleep what if i crushed all of your dreams and broke all the promises you swore to keep? Tell me how your life would be if i did to you what you did to me




The pain is real even if nobody knows. I pretend that I’m glad you went away. These walls are closing more every day and I’m dying inside.. and nobody knowsit but me. Like a clown, I put on a show




A thousand words couldn't bring you backI know because I've tried. Neither could a thousand tears, I know because I've cried. You left behind a broken heart and happy memories too. But I never wanted memories, I only wanted you




Love is a word no one can explain...It comes and goes for me it will never stay... why cant true lovee come my way?... I've tried so hard wishin' it would work out... but in the end I dont know wut it was all about...so i think from now on I'm just gunna play it cool... be good and set some rules... being single aint that bad?!but now i see that being single is just being sad




SAD QUOTES AND SONG TO SHARE ............................

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

when are we HAPPIEST???





When are we Happiest? *********************Unfortunately the world is an unhappy place, full of misery andsuffering. We hear of senseless acts of violence and needless deathsevery day. Money and more pointedly the lack of it is a source ofgreat unhappiness all over the world.Reigning supreme over all other miseries in the western world ismatters of the heart. Love, betrayal, loneliness and unrequited lovebring a whole new dimension to unhappiness as these are rarelyfleeting moments of sadness but cancers, slowly eating away at ourpride, resolve and our souls.I'm not saying that it is impossible to find happiness in this worldonly that sometimes happiness is not true happiness - it is more areprieve from being miserable. Sometimes when we believe that we arehappy we are fooling ourselves because the reality is that we are nottruly elated and happy, we just aren't sad for a while.Some of the times that we are genuinely happy is if we are luckyenough to find someone that we love and reciprocates our feelings. Weare happy on the birth of our children but some of that happiness isus already living vicariously through the new born because of theirinnocence.And therein lies the root of happiness, innocence. We are happiest as children, innocent and untainted by the ills of theworld, if we are lucky and do not suffer abuse.We are happiest before we see the true face of the world with it'sreligious and territorial wars, senseless slaughter and waste of humanlives. Before we know anything of affairs of the heart and the painand pleasure that love can bring and take away.Our days and our thoughts are uncluttered with things like worry andfear, hatred and pain. We blissfully run through fields and the mostimportant concern we might have is whether our mother will shout at usfor getting a hole in yet another pair of shoes.We have no idea or concern as to what the future holds in store. Weface it with no fear or pre-conceptions and our dreams are boundlessand intact. We are oblivious to the fact that once we exit childhoodthere will insurmountable challenges in our way so we run and play,climb trees and throw balls whilst the world waits patiently around usready to shatter our illusions and hit us hard with reality once ourchildhoods are over.When reality hits, it strips away our hopes and dreams unless we clingon to them vehemently and defiantly, our innocence falls around thesame time and realisation dawns that the world is not a playground.There are bills to pay, there is work to do, hearts to be broken andlives to be lost. Mortality looms as we realise all of a sudden how anendless childhood seems so long ago and so fleeting and we realisethat we are looking through the eyes of an adult at other childrenplaying in the field, laughing and running with their innocence intactand we realise that it is that innocence that must be protected aslong as possible. Because we know that when that innocence leaves themhappiness will only visit from time to time rather than be a constantcompanion.We realise and remember as we see children playing the happiness thatwe enjoyed and we realise that we we were happiest as children beforewe were tainted by reality and responsibilities.As we watch them play, just for a moment happiness turns our way andsmiles like an old friend and the child in each of us smiles backwarmly

Monday, July 13, 2009

LOVE OR HATE THEM.......THIS IS US MAN


Im a TAURUS and lots of things we hear bout taurus and their behaviour,i compiled a list of things bout GUYS so that LADIES will understand us more and please keep all this in mind.As simple your MAN maybe ,we are the most difficult individual to study and even we MAN dun understand ourself at times...............


1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about. 2) Guys are more emotional then you think. If they loved you once, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let go in their head, and it hurts every second that they try. 3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile. 4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to. 5) Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what? uh...nevermind." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out. 6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice. 7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. 8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU LOVE THEM !!! 9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot. 10) If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl. 11) If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and he's really thinking on something. 12) When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that. 13) When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me." 14) If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up. 15) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something. 16) Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD or confusing, but somehow are drawn even more to them. 17) A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day. 18) No guy can handle all his problems on his own; he's just too stubborn to admit it 19) NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE!!! Just because ONE is RUDE doesnt mean he represents ALL of them. 20) WHEN A GUY SACRIFICES HIS SLEEP AND HEALTH JUST TO TALK TO YOU, HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. 21) Even if you dumped a guy months ago and he loved you, he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be for you to come back into his life.


-EVERYTHING WRITTEN HERE IS TRUE....SO LADIES, READ IT ...........................

LOST LOVE


I dont wanna lose you,I dont wanna use youJust to have somebody by my sideAnd I dont wanna hate youI dont wanna take youBut I dont wanna be the one to cryThat dont really matter to anyone, anymoreBut like a fool I keep losing my placeAnd I keep seeing you walk through that doorBut theres a danger in loving somebody too muchAnd its sad when you know its your heart you cant trustTheres a reason why people dont stay where they areBaby sometimes love just aint enoughNow I could never change youI dont wanna blame youBaby you dont have to take the fallYes I may have hurt youBut I did not desert youMaybe I just wanna have it allIt makes a sound like thunderIt makes me feel like rainAnd like a fool who will never see the truthI keep thinking somethings gonna changeBut theres a danger in loving somebody too muchAnd its sad when you know its your heart you cant trustTheres a reason why people dont stay where they areBaby sometimes love just aint enoughAnd theres no way homeWhen its late at night and youre all aloneAre there things that you wanted to sayDo you feel me beside you in your bedThere beside you where I used to layAnd theres a danger in loving somebody too muchAnd its sad when you know its your heart they cant touch.Theres a reason why people dont stay who they areCause baby sometimes love just aint enough.Baby sometimes love just aint enough




A song in the 90 that tells us, in a relationship...MAYBE SOMETIMES LOVES JUST AINT ENOUGH! These few weeks, i have been feeling terrible..very terrible indeed . sometimes in a relationship/marriage... love just aint enough to sustain it.Its take a whole lots of little little things and money too..... I learn the hard way, i tot love is just a simple 4 LETTERS word ....Im wrong,truly wrong... i tot im street smart,but im naive.... in love...Those saying there in love,think again bout the love.... religion/differences/attitude/behaviour all play a part in it..


To the love that can nvr come back.......... its not me which is talking,its my heart .

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Adakah salah perbuatan ini atau mulia atas dasar keperimanusian?

Andri terbaca tentang MKI dalam salah satu blog nya dan terpegun dgn cara pemifikiran dan melihat anjing anjing dirumah nya...Ada kah kita di SG akan menerima jika ada orang melayu islam seperti dia?

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

FOR FUN ,LAUGHTER,PEACE AND JOY






Caller : Hello, can I speak to Annie Wan (anyone)?


Operator : Yes, you can speak to me.


Caller : No, I want to speak to Annie Wan (anyone)!


Operator : You are talking to someone! Who is this?


Caller : I'm Sam Wan (Someone). And I need to talk to Annie Wan (anyone)! It's urgent.


Operator : I know you are someone and you want to talk to anyone! But what's this urgent matter about?


Caller : Well... just tell my sister Annie Wan (anyone) that our brother Noel Wan (no one)has involved in an accident. Noel Wan (no one)got injured and now Noel Wan (no one) is being sent to the hospital. Right now, Avery Wan (everyone) is on his way to the hospital.


Operator : Look if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital, then the accident isn't an urgen t matter! You may find this hilarious but I don't have time for this!


Caller : You are so rude! Who are you?


Operator : I'm Saw Lee (Sorry).


Caller : Yes! You should be sorry. Now give me your name!!!
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This is hilarious ...

Why Chinese shouldn't have Christian names:

Anne Chang => Dirty (Mandarin)
Anne Chin => Keep Quiet (Mandarin)
Faye Chen => Dusty (Mandarin)
Carl Cheng => Buttock (Hokkien)
Monica Cheng => Touching your buttocks (Hokkien)
Lucy Leow => You are dead (Hokkien)
Jane Tan => Frying eggs (Mandarin)
Suzie Leow => Lose till death (Hokkien)
Henry Mah => Hate your mum (Mandarin)
Corrine Tai => Poor fellow (Hokkien)
Paul Chan => Bankrupt (Mandarin)
Nelson Tan => Bird laying eggs (Mandarin)
Leslie Tong => Rubbish Bin (Mandarin)
Carmen Teng => Leg hair long (Hokkien)
Connie Mah => Call your mother (Cantonese)
Danny See => Squeeze you to death (Hokkien)
Rosie Teng => Screws and nails (Hokkien)
Pete Tsai => Nose droppings (Hokkien)
Macy Koh => Never die before (Cantonese)

Sunday, July 5, 2009

FROG UNDER A COCONUT SHELL




Y do the frog stay under the coconut shell? ppl say he is stupid to be living under coconut shell and not see the world ..


is the frog really stupid......? or is it his destiny?
or is it better for him to stay there?
or is it just his fate?


No one wanted to be like the frog,but i can tell u that at times its better to be the frog living in his own shell,minding his own business and minding his own business..

It happen to me, when my comments and feedback brought nothing except anger to others.I'm not asking them to listen or do wat i say,but at least think and analyst it before even getting angry.
Sometimes i just wished i could just accept anything and everything as it is,and keep comments and suggestion to myself like i always do..(last time)
sometimes i just wish that i am living in my shell and ignored wat ever happen to my surrounding,my frens and my love one...I was living in my shell before and maybe i should do that again .Dun care or bother bout what others say or do,as long as they are happy with what they do,so be it

Saturday, July 4, 2009

TAURUS MAN.....which is ME..




A typical Taurus man comes across as a very calm, quiet, practical, composed, humble as well as levelheaded person. He takes one step at a time, that too after much deliberation. He is not the one who 'falls in the love at the first sight'. A Taurus male will take time to decide whether you are the person with whom he can spend his entire life. However, if he makes up his mind that you are the one for him, he will go to any lengths to win your love. These efforts include being romantic to the core, sending you flowers, writing poems for you, etc.

Taurean men are always protective of their loved ones and will be very gentle and pleasant towards them. When in love, they are very romantic and will express the same with small little gestures. You may be given flowers every other day, taken to the most romantic place in the town and wished on all the important days of your life, like the first time you met him. If you want to stir the emotions of a Taurus male, the best way is to play some soothing, romantic songs. Building castles in the air is not one of the traits of a Taurus guy's personality.

He won't promise you the stars, but he will gift you the diamond necklace you saw in the jewelry shop two days back. With him, you will never feel insecure about the future. His characteristics profile includes qualities like calm strength, stable nature and peaceful ways, all of which are sure to win your heart. A Taurus man does not believe in taking chances and will always be prepared for the worst of circumstances. If you want to attract him, it is better to start brushing up your lady charms right now.

He doesn't want a tomboyish wife. You will be expected to behave like a lady. When you are in a public place, let your Taurean male be the brighter one of the two. Don't misunderstand him. He respects your intelligence, but don't make him feel embarrassed by contradicting his statements in public. If you make this mistake, remember to say sorry afterwards or you are doomed. Never ever try to push him or you will have to face his violent temper. In case you just did that, remain with him and try to calm him. z

Don't even think of going to your mom's flat for the weekend. You are his wife, he loves you and you have to live with him. A Taurus guy will also not tolerate outsiders interfering in his house, be it your mother or anyone else. He wants a girl who is close to him, but is not clinging on to him forever. He wants his freedom and will let you enjoy your freedom too. You will be allowed to indulge in all you feminine fashions. Infact, a Taurean man will enjoy watching you do the typical feminine stuff, that too with patience.

However, remember that he is the boss of the house and come back to him when he asks you to. If you do this, you will be treated with the most pleasant and agreeable husband on this earth. Just let him handle the reins and he will do anything and everything for you. Don't expect him to announce his love ten days after meeting you. Taurean men take time to truly comprehend their emotions, but when they do, they make sure that they get their love. Love blindfolds them and they become generous to all the flaws of the relationship.

A Taurean male loves nature and its beauty. When he settles down, he wants crisp bread, sparkling cutlery and perfectly baked apple pie. Don't expect him to eat that burnt sandwich, without saying anything. As a father, he will be tender, demonstrative, warm and understanding. A Taurus man is extremely hard working and thus, needs to rest every now and then. Don't ever push him or accuse him of being lazy when he is walking at his own leisurely pace. If you are thinking of getting married to him, develop the habit of keeping the house clean and warm.

He wants his home to look like a home, not a garbage dump. Don't worry; he won't be criticizing you all the time. Infact, most of the time, he will be generous to even those faults on which other males complain. Just remember to make a Taurus man feel like the head of the family and let him handle all the responsibilities. He will provide you a cozy nest, which will be full of love, warmth, care and concern. He is stubborn, but only when you provoke him. Otherwise, he is the most patient man you will ever find. Be happy. You have a real man besides you, who will wrap his arms around you, protect you & love you forever

Friday, July 3, 2009

2 b a bad man 2 be a sad man






No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue HEART
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies

But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through


No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies

No one knows what its like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue heart


ITS FOR MY PAST AND NOT MY PRESENT OR MY FUTURE!!!