Tuesday, March 27, 2012

If tomoro nver comes


If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them

Sang by Ronan keating and i wish tomorrow really never comes,I been out the whole night and been thinking the whole time. what have i done? what was I'm thinking?

its my third post for today and this is the only way i can let off my steam.my sorrow.. only 1 person i confide in today and she is the only one who understand .

Firstly, i nver meant to hurt
secondly,i nver meant to treat anyone as a tools
thirdly, i nver meant to make others cry

BUT I'M SORRY, IT ALL HAPPENS.

I really cant face anyone now,I'm ashamed... too ashamed to even meet or even talk on the phone.. I'm just too ashamed of my own behaviour,of my own action.....I'm just a failure and FML for that .....

Monday, March 26, 2012

I be gone

I think the best thing to do now, is to go away. Away from here n away from those I hurt, it's not just 1 heart I broke, but 3 including mine.
I know, im still the one to be blame, but this time I admit it's mine... To both of u that I hurt, I'm sorry once again and I know it's so many time that u heard me say sorry.... But this is the last, I'm hurt too. If I were to dissapear one day... Pls dun look for me , it's time I go away to asked myself.... What I really wanted in life ...

I screw up

Its my fault that I screw up, I'm not blaming anybody regarding the recent Incident. I thought I have luck but I forget luck do runs out. How I wish I can run and hide from u, how I hope I can disappear without a trace of get in to prison and hide GOD I really mean it. I can't explained y I'm doing all this but it happen . I dun deserved any forgiveness from both of u. A man can never love 2 person at the same time,and I admit my mistake . What I wish is for tia to accept my choice n I'm gonna be contented with just that. She is my flesh n blood n have the highest place in my heart. Without me, she won't be here, and without her, I won't be what I am.

2001 she was born and my life change , if not for her , I guess prison is home for me and my wild days will Nver stop. Nobody can understand that but that alone does not justify my action today. I'm sorry ....... Just leave me alone for these couple of days . .. Andri.