Its a Tough LIFE

A fortune teller once told me...my life will change in 2009, things will get better and i be a new n change person.I dunno what makes him says that,but i guess what he says is not true at all..YES i found a job as an Executive chef, yes i bought a new car .

...............................But,my financial responsibility is getting more n more.My pay dint grow but my financial grows alot..Its really difficult to make ends meet now and having to stay in the restaurant for 12 to 14 hrs daily does not help either...

My daily expenses increase tremendously due to the journey,stupid ERP and car park..and when it come to pay day , the more u earn the more the GOMEN deduct your pay,( they say its CPF contribution)

My day to day expenses is already high enough and with the additional financial responsibilities that i have,does not makes it easier for me,Is there anything i can do ????? THAT THE QUESTION I ASK MYSELF?

I'm just getting so pissed with myself and really angry...COS I CANT EVEN DO ANYTHING BOUT IT...

I dun drink, I dun club and i certainly dun Shop...i dun even eat out .....so where the hell i gone wrong?Its just so frustrating that i have to live with this kind of life...

HOW LONG WILL THIS HAPPEN TO ME?

My ex marriage,My ex wife My past Life

Never did i imagine that i would one day be bold enough to open the story of my broken marriage here...We knew when i was in pri school,she was my so call childhood love...we lost contact when i was in primary 5 and we meet again when i was in secondary 2,than we lost contact again till im doing my NS

Her family like me and we get along very well, we go for a holiday together and one day we decided to get engaged. A 3 yrs engagement was brought forward to 2 yrs... i have to work 2 jobs to get married earlier than expected cos she wanted it.

Marriage was a grand affair for me as she is the only daughter and we did both in SG n JB as she had a house there too... i tot my life was complete.............

No matter how calm is the sea....sometimes waves come knocking , thats wat happen here.When ever we had a problem or argument,her mum would be the first to know or advise,Mum told me to give her time to grow up and one day i tot i would purposely try for a baby even when she dun wan it...i tot she would grow up and be more matured when she is expecting .... i was wrong indeed

Thing got worse when she wanted to have a new place to stay, a new house that she wanna build according to her liking,i have to work triple hard to sustain the family... i would be suffering from minor depression in other to get the money in any way...she wanted a maid too and stop working,my financial responsibility grows up so much that at times... i cry to sleep,thinking on how to make ends meet ...it does not help even when the mum start to contribute to MY family....cos every time we argue,the usual words will be,,,,"u not shy ah ? MUM got to help our family.....I kept all this to myself as i dun wan to bother anyone . i suffer in silent..............things got worse and thus the marriage broke down.

Please dun get me wrong...she is not and never a bad woman,just that i think I'm not good enough for her,she remarried in 2005 and i been on a good term with her and her new husband till now.... no matter what , she is still the mother to my daughter .

I pray for her and her new family to last long and be happy always,It never come across my mind to be back with her and i even introduced my GF to her last time....

My past makes me what i am now,My present is the effect of my past and my future will be uncertain due to my past

That's my ex marriage, and she is my ex wife.................

Believing is Everything

"GREAT DISCIPLINE generates ENORMOUS STRENGTH

- Feeding the brain positive thoughts will eventually transform the thinking procedure.
- TRANSFORMED THINKING transforms everything.
- Remove your Disadvantage Complex
* Build Strong Self-Confidence and you are on your way......
* The truth is, YOU ARE NEVER TOO OLD TO CHANGE
* The most serious handicap any person can have is - an IMPOSSIBILITY COMPLEX
* No one's background or past is a disadvantage unless one makes it so in one's thinking.
Remember, any disadvantage rightly handled can be turned into an advantage.
- Possibility Thinking is the greatest weapon that one who feels inferior because of race or
nationality can acquire. Once Possibility Thinking is acquired, then the imagination is no
longer tyrannized, tripped or tricked by Impossibility Thinking.
* Man who wins is the man who is sure that he can.
* One small possibility thought can overpower many impossibility thoughts, if the"