16 THINGS BOUT US MAN....THAN WOMAN SHOULD KNOW AND UNDERSTAND...

1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but
before they go to sleep they always think about the girl they truly care about

2) Guys are more emotional then you think if they
loved you at one point it takes them a lot longer
then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they arent with you

3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile ( :

4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to

5) Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what uh...never mind....." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are
thinking and he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll
obsess about it trying to figure it out

6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. you don't need to give advice

7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THEN YOU LOVE THEM!

9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use
beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a
whole heck of a lot.

10) If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl,
he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next
time he spends time with you

11) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something

12)A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day

13)No guy can handle all his problems on his own He's just too stubborn to admit it

14)NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE! Just because ONE is RUDE doesn't mean he represents ALL of them

15) WHEN A GUY SACRIFICES HIS SLEEP AND HEALTH JUST TO TALK TO YOU, HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE

16) Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life

Cakes of Love......

Thru out my career as a kitchen helper to chef-de-cuisine,Pastry was never my forte.I never like to do cakes,desserts,Gelato and all the sweets stuff.Im more to the oven,fire burning,grilling and creating new items kind of chef,i only do things for a reason and pastry is something i did if i have a reason to do it ..

I bake cakes,for my loves one... i present them these cakes to soften,pacify and pleased them as i feel,the sweetness of a cake will make everybody smile.I did the cakes myself and its such a complicated things to do in baking, the temperature must be right, the grammage and even the time and ingredient..1 wrong moved and its back to zero......thats y i never liked pastry..

Only 2 ladies did have the benefits to try and taste the cakes i do,only 2 of these ladies have tasted my cakes and thank me for that...I can cook anytime for anyone,but bake? its only for someone special.............

I know its selfish,but its a selfish world we are leaving in. Its either u or them,some ppl will never appreciate what we did,but than again..thats life.Some just need u at their own conveniences...and again thats what some of us are treated.

A man will lower their ego ,but not to the lowest..some man will go against their belief,but not forever.....times and time..we will be dissapointed in life,time and time again we will make others dissapointed....its a cycle which can never be broken or change....

whatever happens to us,its all fate....Life is Fated And thats how i live my life..

SEPI

malam…
ku tidur tak lena
teringatkan dirimu
terimbas kembali kenangan lalu
alangkah indahnya bersamamu

mengalir air mataku
menemani malam sepiku
ku rindu saat bersamamu
sukarnya ku untuk melupakanmu

dahulu engkau berikan cinta
mengapa kini engkau berubah
manakah janji akan setia menanti


jikalau engkau tak lagi cinta
katakan saja aku tak kisah
dari kau terus membuat ku menunggu

tak ku sangka
tak ku duga

perpisahan yang akan melanda
dah ku cuba
pertahankan
namun dirimu pergi jua

cintamu bagaikan rembulan
yang hadir bila malam menjelang
kau hilang bila siang mendatang
begitulah sikap mu oh syg

kau lontar cintaku ditepian
ku bagaikan hanyut di lautan
yang lemas di dalam percintaan
dipukul gelombang keresahan

~dahulu engkau berikan cinta
mengapa kini engkau berubah
manakah janji akan setia menanti

jikalau engkau tak lagi cinta
katakan saja aku tak kisah
dari kau terus membuat ku menunggu
tak ku sangka
tak ku duga

perpisahan yang akan melanda
dah ku cuba
pertahankan
namun dirimu pergi jua

cintamu bagaikan rembulan
yang hadir bila mlm menjelang
kau hilang bila siang mendatang
begitulah sikap mu oh syg

kau lontar cintaku ditepian
ku bagaikan hanyut di lautan
yang lemas di dalam percintaan
dipukul gelombang keresahan

mengalir air mataku
menemani mlm sepiku
ku rindu saat bersamamu
sukarnya ku untuk melupakanmu

The CALL that change my future........if i accept,should i accept?

Early morning at 8 am today, a called came in from an unfamiliar number and looking for me...duh!...

Miss or Mrs or Mdm Rebecca called and asking me if im available to come down to their office anytime soon to talk bout my job? As i was still sleeping and feeling blur, i asked her...huh? what job?

I applied for a position as a Chef-De Cuisine on a cruise liner long time back that i cant remember when oso,Now they asked me to sign a contract of 2 yrs on a luxury ship taking charge of a restaurant on board with 70 plus staff from all over the WORLD? I hope no China Man in the kitchen though..... I was of cos happy and delighted,the salary is good and in US dollar, i get to travel round the world and visit places i never go before.........THAN,when i was driving to work... I THINK!

Will i accept the job,hows my family and loves one,hows TIA especially,how will this effect me and her? will she missed me? will i missed her? what bout my parents?thers is too much at stake and to think bout if i go...and damn its for 2 solid years.... even if i go jailed for 2 years oso they can still visit me....but this?

On the other hand,if i take up this job offer, i be away for 2 years and i can slowly forget and erased the unwanted memories or event in my life,I can earn more money that i earned here and my experience will definitely widen and jobs satisfaction will be high for me....

I have bout 1 month to think it over and gives Rebecca the answer,till than, GOD please helped me make my decision cos 50% of me wanted to GO,50% of me wants me to STAY.............

IBU..... u make my day...

After a long day or work and feeling tired and sleepy, i just wanted to go home ,wash up and go to sleep...i think,thats my daily routine.Work been very stressful with me wanting to hit the company target and working with whole bunch of China workers does not gives me any benefits at all ...for now.

I slowly park the car,get a can of my usual COKE from the vending machine and waited for the lift, these days the lift takes a longer time to come down as they are renovating and 1 lift operate only.

I drag my body into the lift and go up, i unlock the gate and than the wooden door,all was dark,usually when i got home,most of them goes to bed and closed their doors except for my room,I on the light to the room and my mum as usual will clean ,mop and tidy up my room...HAHA, i know la, i should be doing all that.

To my suprised she even change the bed sheet for me, and when i saw the bedsheet, i was nearly choked by the coke and burst into a laugh,yes i laugh out loud alone in the room.....

My mother actually changed the bedsheet to a cover which i will never wanted to let ppl see ,im so freaking malu sia to see the cover and the pillow, i felt like a princess....yes u heard it right,like a princess

........................cos the bedsheet is so beatifully pink in colour,i will show u the pic,but dun laugh k..i swear to GOD i never asked my mum to buy me this bedsheet or what,maybe she got it cheap at pasar malam or perhaps my aunt gave
her....But my IBU make my day !

THIS IS MY BEDSHEET FOR THE NEXT FEW NIGHTS!!!

I Believe

I believe that the sun shines after the rain
I believe if you don't get hurt you'll never gain
I believe in not doing things the easy way
I believe that being selfish doesn’t pay

I believe in a second chance
I believe in a life long romance
I believe there is life after death
And standing up to a life of mess

I believe in love at first sight
I believe that revenge isn’t right
I believe that first impressions last
And there is nothing better then a good laugh

I believe that dreams do come true, I believe there's destiny for me and you,
I believe something good comes from something bad I believe everyone has one true love



I believe there's destiny for me and you
I believe that good things come to those who wait
I believe love never arrives too late

I believe something good comes from something bad
I believe that for tears of happiness there are tears of sad
I believe everyone has a guardian angel
And the good you do will be rewarded well

I believe sometimes there is no explanation
I believe money can't buy people's affection
I believe you don't know what you've got until it's gone
I believe a new day arrives with every dawn

I believe a smile can be contagious
I believe in being very outrageous
I believe in living with no regrets
I believe that life is as good as it gets

I believe that God watches over us
I believe the little things are worth the fuss
I believe you have each friend for a reason
I believe you will get punished for treason

I believe that what comes first is family
I believe we should all live in harmony
I believe in making the most of a beautiful day
And it's not the end until everything's okay

I believe absence makes the heart grow fonder
I believe you will lose if you sit and wonder
I believe every experience teaches you a lesson
And nothing cures better then a thinking session

I believe everyone has one true love
I believe sometimes we need a little shove
I believe the whole world is a stage
I believe we only get better with age

I believe that to learn you have to live
I believe that to love someone you have to give
I believe one moment can change your life
And there's still help when you’re in strife

I believe everyone has one true friend
I believe love helps a broken heart mend
I believe in the power of a song
And things will change before too long

I believe living is the best experience
I believe in not laughing at other people’s expense
I believe it’s hard to watch a lover leave
And when they’re gone all you can do is breath

I believe to always look on the bright side
I believe that life is just one big ride
I believe when I die people will grieve
But it’s ok even if im the only IDIOT WHO BELIEVE

Kiss from a roses!

A kiss is a kiss,but i guess each kiss means different things and gesture.....here we go

+Kiss on the stomach = Im ready
+Kiss on the Forehead ="i hope we're together forever"
+Kiss on the Ear = Your my everything
+Kiss on the Cheek = "We're friends"
+Kiss on the Hand = "I adore you"
+Kiss on the Neck = "we belong together"
+Kiss on the Shoulder = "I want you"
+Kiss on the Lips = I love you"

What the gesture means...
+Holding Hands = "we definitely love each other"
+Slap on the Butt = "That's mine"
+Holding on tight = "i don't want to let go"
+Looking into each other's Eyes = "i just plain love you"
+Playing with Hair = "Tell me you love me"
+Arms around the Waist = "I love you too much to let go"
+Laughing while Kissing = "I am completely comfortable with you"

--Advice--
+ Dont ask for a kiss, take one.
+If you were thinking about someone while reading this,
you're definitely in Love.

Give me a kisse, and to that kisse a score;
Then to that twenty, adde a hundred more;
A thousand to that hundred; so kisse on,
To make that thousand up a million;
Treble that million, and when that is done,
Let's kisse afresh, as when we first begun

Keinsafan dan Keampunan.....

Forgiving is love's toughest work, and love's biggest risk. If you twist it into something it was never meant to be, it can make you a doormat or an insufferable manipulator. Forgiving seems almost unnatural. Our sense of fairness tells us people should pay for the wrong they do. But forgiving is love's power to break nature's rule

Kata -Kata yang aku dapat dari sebuah buku yang aku baca( MCM PAHAM JE BACA BUKU)
Manusia tidak akan pernah lari dari membuat kesilapan dan kesalahan,walau kesalahan itu kecil sekalipun ianya tetap salah dan tidak harus dilakukan kepada sesiapa sekalipun,I made mistakes im just a man.
Kadang kala kita terdesak dan membuat kesilapan itu untuk menutup sesuatu kesalahan,ada juga kerana kita tidak ingin bertengkar,kita menipu dan ia juga satu kesilapan.

Dalam hidup aku ,banyak kesilapan yang kecil mahupun yang besar telah aku lakukan pada orang lain.Aku juga pernah melakukan kesilapan terhadap bekas isteriku apabila aku menjatuhkan Talak didepan mahkamah( padahal aku telah berjanji pada ayah dan ibunya aku tidak akan menjatuhkan TALAK sedang aku diijabkabulkan)

Selapas beberapa tahun,aku selalu terfikir tentang kesilapa yang aku lakukan dan cuba menjernihkan air yang kotor,aku cuba merendah diri dan meminta keampunan atas segala kesilapan aku,ternyata ada yang tidak ingin memaafkan kesilapan yang aku lakukan,ada juga yang telah mengampunkan kesilapan itu dan mereka menerima aku kembali...tetapi,layanan dan cara mereka melayan aku,jauh beza dari dulu.Aku terima hakikatnya yang aku pernah membuat kesilapan kepada mereka dan aku harus berterima kasih jika mereka sudi memaafkan diri ini,aku tidak seharusnya meminta mereka melayan aku seperti dulu dan aku harus sedar bahawa,aku bukan lagi memiliki diri mereka yang pernah aku lukai..

Masa menentukan segalanya dan masa juga dapat mengubat luka ,masa adalah satu-satunya perkara yang aku perlukan untuk memberitahu yang aku ini ikhlas untuk menebus dosa dosa silam...

Ya ALLAH, Berikan aku kekuatan untuk aku menjalani hidup ini seharian,berikan aku petunjuk untuk mengubah cara hidupku dan pemikiranku ini,berikan aku waktu untuk membuktikan segalanya...

Bagaimanakan ku mula
Dan apakah kata-kata
Yang indah untuk diabadikan
Tiap wajah berkisah
Tiap madah bererti
Manakah ilhamku

Cahaya di matamu
Senyum di bibirmu
Mengukir seribu tanda pertanyaan
Mungkinkah kau jua dalam kerinduan
Di saat begini aku merindukan

Berhelai-helai surat
Terbiar di depanku
Tak dapat aku utuskan
Ku ramas semua
Dan ku buangkan
Jauh dari pandangan

Lalu aku kesal
Ku kumpul semula
Tak dapat ku nyatakan apa yang ku rasa
Jika engkau tahu di dalam hatiku
Mungkinkah kau sahut jeritan batinku

Dengarkanlah panggilanku
Dengarkanlah lagu untukmu
Angin lalu kau sampaikan
Rasa rindu yang membara
Kepadanya

Warna-warna cintaku
Kian pudar bersama
Malam yang gelap gelita
Entahkan kau rasakan
Apa yang aku rasa
Atau kau tak endah

Tapi ku percaya
Semua telah tertulis
Dan niat suciku takkan disiakan
Dan di suatu masa
Di hari yang indah
Ku hulur tanganku
Lalu kau terima

Lagu SUATU MASA dari M.Nasir

Feeling all F*#K -UP.....

PLS SEEK PARENTAL GUIDE WHEN READING THIS BLOG..SOME CONTENT MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR UNDER 18..

ARE U 18 AND ABOVE? ___ YES ___ NO


These few weeks especially,been feeling worse and worse each day, i cant explain y it feels these ways either,maybe its my job,my life or its just me.I feel uneasy,moody and really got no mood to do things.If i have a choice, i just wanna lie down on my bed and "NUA" the whole day.
I hated this feelings,but yet again im finding n searching the reason y am i feeling so F*#k-up n SCREWED -UP...yey i cant.

I doubt its midlife crisis cos i know for sure i fucking have a long way to go till mid life crisis struck me.but y the fuck im feeling this bad? its one of the worse feeling i had since 2002 when i got seperated,i just felt fucking useless
and no words of console can make me feel better...

How i wish i was a fucking kids and dun have to worry so much, go sch( i did go to sch for a decent number of years,even though my attendance is always 50% and below) ,do homework( i have my frens to do that for me btw),go religious class( yes i did go for awhile,after that just go play soccer and tell my mum i went), puppy love( u know the time wen u fall for a girl in your class and getting so shy when your classmates n teacher tease u ) I miss all that, no worry,no problem,no troubled mind.

Now, all i do is fucking work,yes i love my job as a chef and the money is good,but i always end up broke cos i have lots of financial commitment.I have lots of frens,too many at times.I have lots of loved all around me,but i always felt empty..empty in my heart......

The fact that some ppl hated me is another reason y i feel so Fuck-up..i know im an asshole before, i might took your GF away, i might toy with gerls feelings as and when i want,but its over now.. i stopped i mean i stopped alot! BUT TO THOSE WHO TILL NOW HATED ME OR MY GUTS... I HAVE SOMETHING TO TELL U...EVEN IF U HATE ME,I DUN GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE.. U KNOW WHERE TO FIND ME, SO PLEASE DUN BE A FUCKING SISSY AND HIDE BEHIND YOUR LAPTOP..... cos i had enough of these laptop warriors...its time to closed the chapter and end all this nonsence.....come and get what u want, i be happy to give ...

Life for me thesedays,is simply not that meaningful at all....shit happens,yes i know it happens at times, but shits always happen for me,thats wat i dun understand...maybe it retribution,maybe its karma maybe its just a test from GOD, whatever it is ....Its just NOT GOOD AT ALL.

On the inside it feels like no one cares and on the outside people do care,
But what I don't understand is why,
Do I feel no one cares...
I always screw up in life and mess things up...
Yet people still care...
I'm such a silly boy when it comes to my feelings...
Why is all I ask....
Do you care this much about a screw up like me?

BENCI..........

Perkataan BENCI selalu kita dengar apabila kita marah atau sudah tidak ambil endah tentang seseorang itu,haruskah kita terus membenci atau benci akan berubah ?Harus kta ambil kisah tentang sebab kita membenci orang itu,adakah wajar kita membencinya selamanya atau untuk sementara waktu sahaja?

Aku tidak pernah membenci seseorang untuk selamanya walau apa yang mereka telah atau pernah lakukan kepada diriku,mungkin aku seorang yang pemaaf kerana aku sedar,kita hanya manusia biasa dan kita belajar dari kesilapan kita itu.

Jauh itu ada jarak yang terpisah...
Jauh itu ada ruang yang memisah...
Jauh itu dua insan yang terpisah...
Jauh itu dua hati yang dipisah...
Namun jauh itu ada rindu yang tak sudah..."

"Ku benci pada siapa saja yang bertakhta di hatimu selain diriku...
Benci juga pada diri sendiri kerana berkeadaan begini
kerana jiwaku telah terlalu menyangi dirimu...
Dan aku benci pada jarak ini yang telah menimbulkan
kerinduan..."

"Tiada siapa yang tahu isi hatiku...
Dan tak akan ada yang tahu ...
Hanya TUHAN tahu isi hatiku
tapi sayang seribu kali sayang...
kau hanya tahu di kulitnya saja bukan di dalam..."


Kadang kala hidup ini,terlalu sukar untuk kita memahami tujuan dan erti penghidupan itu sendiri,sekarang baru aku mengerti mengapa mereka berkata,hidup ini cuma pinjaman semata mata,hidup ini tak akan indah dan senang selama lama,
walaupun kita bertukar tukar pasangan,kita bersuka ria dan berfoya foya...cuba tanya dengan diri kita adakah ini kebahagian? adakah ini yang kita pinta dan ada ini cara hidup yang kita idam-idamkan?

Mabuk,pergi disko,ramai kawan kawan yang ketawa dan gembira bersama....akhirnya,bila kita pulang kerumah dan bersendirian,kita akan terasa kesunyian dan ingin mengharapkan kasih sayang yang sejati..

Benci keterlaluan kadang kala akan menjadi sayang dan ini telah terbukti dalam kehidupan seharian manusia, Benci yang berlanjutan juga akan memudaratkan kita dalam masa akan datang,Benci yang kita ada selama ini akan membuat kita sedih dan bukan marah terhadap orang itu jika hidupnya lebih selesa dari pada kita...

Akhir kata

Sakitnya hati ini
Namun aku rindu
Bencinya hati ini
Tapi aku rindu


BENCI TAK AKAN MEMBUAT KITA KAYA DAN LEBIH CANTIK !.....JADI "PLEASE EH LAST WARNING" JANGAN NAK BENCI BENCI...SAYANG MANUSIA,BINATANG,POKOK-POKOK ....KERANA HANYA DENGAN SIFAT SAYANG,KITA AKAN TERSENYUM SELALU DAN GEMBIRA...